Stressed

Emotionally stress to the max.

Thinking back what have been happening this few weeks are really saddening much, but I'm pretty happy that my boyfriend is always here by my side going through all this up and down with me all the while. But anyway, everything is still not back on the track yet. Over the past few weeks, grandma was admitted to the hospital staying in ICU, the doctors claimed that she couldn't pass the day itself so relatives decided to just send her home. It was a week ago thing, but i guess grandma really try hard to survive and so everyone of us have to take turn to take care of her now. Oh between, she is 84 this year. And she is currently staying over at my place which this is why I've got so emotionally stress, in a way. 

At the same week itself, brother got into hospital because a big group of people whacked him in the school because of some 'facebook-fighting-issue' (I don't know what lah) and he was bleeding until his uniform full of bloods. Scary much. So, parents changed school for him to this International School in Klang which is quite relatively new but it costs 1k plus per month school fees. It is probably expensive for a highschool fees. But he is pretty much happy (off course lar parents spend so much haha), because he get to learn different languages like german, french etc and get to know japanese girls wtf. 

Between, do you concern about me? HAHA! I will tell you later or in the next post :) 

Waking up early in the morning with hopes is never easy, especially when I myself are not in any good condition yet. I came to realized that everything is not under control; but then..there's always the hope there I believe. Some people who knows me understand how suffering I am going through this by myself everyday, even that I've came to the point of giving up but I still hold on, and move on. I can tell that, this is not an easy task. Mom has suggested if I would see a psychologist because I got so worry and stress but yet I don't know what I'm stressing and worrying about. 

For now, I don't hope that tomorrow i can go shopping or elsewhere to enjoy myself with friends. 

All I'm hoping is.. I can get out of this sick and get well soon. 

Like seriously, 1 hope is more than enough.