Hope

Picture taken err 8 months ago? Okay never mind, that's not the point :) 

Frankly, August has come too fast for me because there are too many things are not back on track yet. Suffering much? Yes! Supposingly this is the month where I need to apply for degree in south Australia but I guess everything has to delay again. I have come to the stage of hating myself because I feel so helpless that I can barely do anything, when eat also became a major problem. Never once in my life I have feel this pathetic until this year, everything sucks to maximum. I really try so hard, because I don't deserve all this. 

Well, lets say if I don't get to take degree in South Australia next year; but I won't give up any hope to go there anytime. Off course not for holidays, but studying abroad has always be my dream. Let's not just be a dream then. So anyway, I have been reading random blogs lately from those bloggers who are studying abroad right now; like seriously, jealousy up to maximum haha. But never mind, I am chasing towards my dream! Let's imagine if i'm wearing a sleeveless tee and shorts with scandals, carrying a bags with good camera in it, walking around in the city capturing every moment and places i go, even if its alone, I wouldn't mind (Off course is best with someone you love lah). Okeh, imagine is good, because it gives hope. Although life is pretty miserable at the moment, but I believe there's this ONE DAY, everything will change. Do not try to demolish my hope, thank you.