Miss Vivien.

Happy Chinese New Year

2012-02-01T09:25:00.000-08:00

Hey!

Happy Chinese New Year in advance!
It's almost 2 am right now and I am staying in tonight because the amount of snacks I ate and the lack of sleep during CNY make me sick! Anyway, Taiwan and Thailand trip during the past few months with boyfriend was amazing enough. Although it was really tiring, but boyfriend really make the efforts to spend more time with me, bringing me to so many places before I leave to Adelaide. I really appreciate that!

So blessed to meet the old friends again during CNY and the angpaus this year is the BOMB!

CNY dinner with Tommy's family. His sister, Elena; whom everyone said we look like twin sister.

Double date vacation to Thailand <3

My boyfriend, the one who care about almost my everything.

I'm more than blessed to have him spending his precious time with me every single day, bringing me for holidays, taking care of my meals and health, surprise me with all that little stuffs occasionally.

So right now, counting down to the day till I leave to Adelaide is like less than only 2 weeks. Finally back to reality, back to studies and no more slacking. Although I have so many reasons not to leave Malaysia right now, parents I need the most, friends I used to hang and play with, boyfriend who used to be with me every single day; really wonder how could I survive without all these when I'm in Adelaide? Oh well, people says life move on wherever you go. We shall see.

Getting really paranoid now because staying away from home is never easy for me. Especially a person like me who don't know how to cook, who lives in daddy mummy's arm for the past 21 years. Studying in Malaysia is already tough enough for me, cannot imagine the amount of stress I'm gonna cope with studying in Australia. Hope you don't see me killing myself one day LOL. Anyway seriously, people says its a good opportunity studying abroad, but I believe everything has its pros and conts, example like I have to wash my own clothes, or cook myself everyday. I have to be a student and a housewife at the same time.

Ok seriously, I can cry myself to sleep everynight from now on knowing that I'm leaving Malaysia so so soon. Hopefully 2 years later when I'm seeing this post, I can laugh at myself saying that everything is not as difficult as i thought.

Good night!

Christmas #2011

2012-01-13T00:14:00.000-08:00

Sorry, I know it's been a long time since I last blogged.

So now, This is the first post for 2012. How's the new year doing so far for you?

Finally, the new year has come by. I couldn't describe how much I wanna get over 2011 because that was the year that made me really upset about life, about living in this world. But now, I'm really proud of myself because I actually took the courage to moved on. The reason why I'm looking forward to 2012 because I'm pretty sure I wanna make some changes about it. A better one. I used to set many goals every year but only realized I actually only achieved one, or none. I know i've always been setting goals that is too far to achieve. So this year, I've decided to make it simple.

Learn to be independent; Learn to care for family; Learn to be compromise a little bit more, especially towards boyfriend because it's gonna be a long distance relationship for approximately 2 years time; AND most importantly, Be healthy.

I know it sounds pretty easy, but I'm sure it take times for me to learn.

So anyway, I know I've been slacking too much from blogging but here's my christmas updates for you guys.

Place: Empire Gallery Subang Soho

Date: 24th December 2011

Theme: Christmas

Christmas hasn't been my thing at all for the past few years and the simplest celebration I had was having turkey at some random restaurant with my family. That's it. I've never been to count down during christmas because I feel so stuffy getting squeezed in the middle of crowd. But this year, I had quite a happening christmas spending my quality time with a bunch of friends who watch me growing up since 15.

The boys trying to act cool before the party starts.

Yayayyy.

Stanley, A friend of mine who actually knows me very well.

Along the years, I saw how he has been changing from a small boy to a man now.

The boys and girls :D

Me, Lee Vee, Hanna and Wan Xin. The girls.

Ivan, a friend of mine who used to talk a lot of cock that doesn't make any sense to me ALL THE TIME. But he is a nice person afterall :)

With the boy, Chee Ming.

My babyboi who was sick during Christmas.

I'm more than blessed to have him knowing that no matter how ill how busy he is, he will always make time and efforts for me :) I really appreciate that.

He is the one who deserve more than I love you, THREE LETTER WORDS.

Ben, who will always be here for me throughout the journey of my life. He seen me going through up and down in life, he saw how I break down, and yet he would cheer me up no matter what.

Tian Ming, we were only friends since last year.

Jia How and Jin Wei.

Christmas party was quite amazing because celebrating with a bunch of people who you're really close with are a whole different story. Finally, we have officially mark a fullstop at 2011, and now its a total brand new year all over again.

And, Obviously 2012 is gonna be really different for me.

Living away from home, from the one I love, the one I used to rely on.

I wonder if I can survive this all alone by myself. I really wonder...

But one thing I'm sure, I am gonna miss this place tremendously.

Getaway to Sekeping Serendah

2011-12-12T22:41:00.000-08:00

Hi there.

Decided to blog now before I get lazy because I don't really make an effort to blog anymore lately. The motivation has gone to somewhere else. December has always be my favorite month of the year although I don't really party much, but maybe because it has finally come to an end to conclude everything over the year and I can't wait for a new start.

Well, I am not sure if this post gonna shock you guys, but just keep reading it if you're the one who longing me to update my blog twice a month. *LOL* So anyway, I've been used to some people talk about little dirty stuffs behind me, but I'm really fine with it because normally those people who talk about me are those who don't know me. Ironic. So, I don't really bother to care. (*just saying, so please keep reading HAHA*)

Here it is:

I'm not sure if I am always the one who can't handle my relationship properly or I've always met the wrong guy, so.. I'd always end up breaking up and says "He's not the one I want." Pathetic much. But from all the relationships I have had, I know that falling in love with someone is not an easy task where trust is always a major concern. I don't wanna be those girl who doubt their own boyfriend, get upset over petty little things then ended up suffocating myself. No, I can make this pretty clear because this is not what we are live for. Basically, happiness is the biggest motive why I am here.

So, Love is all about now.

And Im enjoying every single bit of it now with my love ones.

Anyway, boyfriend and I had our getaway to Sekeping Serendah last weekends to stay away from the city and I've totally know idea where it is. It was such a random plan out of nowhere, and so he decided to bring me here because both of us just talked about how tired to live in the city. Located at Serendah vicinity, deep into the jungle and it is a wonderful retreat far from the city. I was kinda amazed with the green architecture and, especially their glass shed. It was a private retreat with open sheds to the beauty nature, and it actually brings you closer to serenity of mother nature. Really amazing.

Sekeping Serendah Retreat

3/12/2011

Embraced the Nature. You must be wondered how the concept works.

By the time we reached, its already about 6ish.

So we waited till the next morning to explore more in the jungle.

The group. We had barbeque and drinking at night.

Seriously, can I ask if people barbeque eggs?

My boyfriend is such a hero.

I ended up throwing away his barbeque foods and we cooked in the kitchen.

After dinner......

Silly boyfriend couldn't stop saying let's go in the jungle and have sex. So being a very nice girlfriend, I would have to stop him and find something to do. So we had our camwhore time with my new toy- DSLR and trying to act as cute as possible. #1 shot

#2 shot. Awwwwwwwww.........

#3 shot. Can you see what is that!

He ended up watching some random Singaporean drama on the bed disappointedly because he failed convincing his girlfriend to have sex in the jungle. *HAHAHAHAH*

Camwhore #4 shot. Sleepy heads

Jungle treks.

Boyfriend and I supposed to wake up at 6 the next morning to catch the sunrise, but you know right...the environment, temperature, the nature are just PERFECT to sleep. So we woke up at 10 and it was err pretty hot.

Swimming pool. Natural water.

We also went to the Timber Shed, almost everything are recycled items.

Open concept toilet, can you overcome it?

Open concept bathroom of Timber Shed.

The room is so comfy.

One of my favorite picture #5 shot.

#6 shot. Nothing's better than having him around, holding me tight.

#7 shot. It isn't just for the beginning.

#8 shot. He use to carry me like this all the time. *shyyyy*

Smilesssss.

After jungle trekking, we both decided to cook for our own.

You have to see how healthy this boy eat, he eats veges and tomatoes alot.

Pure vegetables and tomatoes.

My boypren eats vegetables everyday, 3 days a meal.

Guess what! I'M FOLLOWING HIM TOOOO @_____@

(If only you're my friends, you'd know how much I hate eating them!!!)

Boyfriend's favorite picture. *Shyyy*

Anyway, this is a good place where you can rest your piece of mind and stay away from the city; You can experience a life without Internet, Television, Radio or even phone signal. So you can guess how peaceful it is. Especially my boyfriend who keep receiving calls all the time, I wish he could stay there foreverrrrrrrrrr.

All I can say is it is worth visiting this place to keep your mind free.

http://www.serendah.com/enquiries.html To check out more :)

See ya!

Diploma Convocation 2011

2011-11-02T00:24:00.001-07:00

Convocation ceremony officially marks an end of my studies in Diploma for this two and the half year. I would like to say that it was a pretty interesting journey in my life, get to meet new people, mixing with a bunch of awesome people and lecturers and off course, I've built my confidence of speaking in public as a Communication student. University life is tougher than what i thought, I faced problems in my assignments, I didn't know how am I suppose to do my assignments when I first started my Diploma, I get really paranoid during presentations. I even struggled to study for my final papers during midnight when I had fever. But, It is all worth doing because I am now GRADUATE!

I never thought I would get here today, and it is a big accomplishment in my life.

Off all the stressful nights I have been through, today, I'm proud that I am holding a certificate and really excited to start my next journey in Degree. I know its gonna be even tougher, but I believe hardwork paid off. Looking back at our road, we see the many different routes we have taken to end up where we are now today, but we couldn't stop where we are now because we have to take the next step towards the future goals. So, Congratulations to all the Graduands and have a bright future ahead!

The Entrance, where all the Graduands have to register to take their tickets and robe.

My family, who always here for me throughout my life. Without them, I wouldn't know who am i today.

I love them more than I could <3

Convocation Ceremony held on the 30 October 2011 (Sunday) at,

Multipurpose Hall, Taylor's Lakeside Campus.

It's me on the stage, receiving my scroll.

Getting ready to walk on stage to get our scroll. Everyone looks really nervous yet excited!

Me, Zharif and Ashley :)

Us. Diploma In Communication!

(Left to right) Ikhwan, Hee, Leela, Me, Angie, Ivy and Abigail.

The group.

Important people in my life, my family.

Angie and I.

Angie, Me and Adele :D

The person who I gossip with <3

Me, Adele, Abigail, Serene and Angie.

My official Diploma Certificate.

My favorite roses.

I am more than grateful to met this bunch of awesome classmates, helping each other throughout the whole journey and yet we didn't even blame each other. We have learnt so much that is more than just studies.

Anyway, it's gonna be another new beginning for the next journey!

Im quite really excited for my Degree, can't wait to go back to University life. Probably because I've more than enough holidays now, but I know Im going to blame this and that when my Degree starts. Oh well, L.I.F.E! You know right, you wish that you have something to do when you're free; but when you're busy you wish that you have time to sleep =__=! Hopefully I have more than enough strength to cope with the coming assignments. Wish me luck.

See ya!

Memories

2011-10-21T06:46:00.000-07:00

Grandma's departure really affects us so much because when she was here, she used to prepare everything for us, she loves us and she gives her best to her children and grandchildren. She was so dearly to us but she is no longer here anymore. It was really heartbreaking to let her go, but it's a blessing that she left peacefully. Every now and then, we still talk about her and tell each other how much we miss her.

Yesterday was grandma's birthday, even though she is not here anymore but we still decided to organize a party at uncle's place with a simple praying ceremony for grandma. We prepared foods, especially those "Teoh Jiu" homemade remedies, pizzas, beers and everyone sat down together in the living room to watch grandma's pictures and dancing videos. Yes, my grandma used to dance and sing very well, she even sings in the radio station before. Not only that, grandma also very good in making all kinds of "Teoh Jiu" foods. However, mom and cousins also made Teoh Jiu Kueh and foods the day before so we can use them to pray grandma. Below is the pictures:

First of all, we have to cook the Sticky Rice first. Looks so yums!

But for those who has bad digestion (LIKE ME), can totally ignore foods like this. Haha.

The process of making.

Dang! For those who never try this before, YOU SHOULD!

I used to love this Teoh Jiu Kueh very much!

It looks beautiful and taste so gooooood.

Besides that, we also made vegetarian Bao and Curry Chicken Bao.

The curry chicken really tastes so goooood.

On the day itself, cousin sister also cooked Teoh Jiu colourful Bobo Chacha.

Our Teoh Jiu family loves this very much.

Ordered 6 boxes of Pizzas and KFC to satisfy the kids.

The cousin sisters.

Sorry, you can ignore my crazy face because I was totally sampat yesterday.

Two pretty cousin sisters.

The person that I love most, dearest daddy.

The left is my fatty niece but she eats very little.

The ladies of all ages.

We had so much yesterday with the relatives, although grandma is not here anymore but life still goes on in everyone of us. Everyone was talking about if grandma was here, we would already celebrate with her and she will be dancing on the stage again. We know, we all miss her.

We wish that she is in a better place now with grandfather.

Grandma's departure bring us, relatives even closer to each other. It is important to appreciate everyone around us, and i truly believe that there's absolutely nothing that is greater than family. I just wanna spend my time with my family and those people I love every now and then.

Last but not least, be appreciate in everything you have right now.

#1 Instagram

2011-10-16T20:30:00.000-07:00

Was in Starbucks earlier with Isabelle, decided to blog abit but the internet connection was really bad. It took about 10mins to load my own blog and it was freaking slow. And some more the weather is extra hot today. So I ended up blogging at home now and bought a lot of food so I can enjoy eating while writing this. Basically I have nothing to do at home everyday besides blogging and reading some books, I also start learning how to cook because my mom always told me girls have to at least know how to cook something. *sweat!* But cooking is indeed a fun thing, like what we used to play "masak masak" when we were young. But it could be tiring either if you cook everyday.

Anyway, I'm going to share some pictures I have in my own instagram (Follow me at @vivienloo) if you want :P. Here's some pictures that I've took recently.

Had lunch with parents at Fong Lye Taiwan Restaurant at Sunway Pyramid last week.

The tea pot was really cute I wanna bring them home :)

Really awesome fried tempura and fried squids. I cannot take too much because it's abit oily for me.

Tried Tutti Frutti for the first time, expensive but I think it worth the price.

I like the flakes with yogurts mix together. Yums!

This is me, if you don't know who am i :)

Bought 1 dozen of J.Co donuts home, and I always prefer buying this than Apple or Dunkin Donuts.

But anyway, I still love starbucks donuts with the sugar on top. Yums!

This picture taken when I was back in Taylors to meet my old friends.

This is Eric, you can see him in KFC ads most of the time.

Abigail and Francisca, the friends that I mixed with during college time.

Used to hang out together all the time.

Also, I use to have starbucks for breakfast at least once everyweek.

Took this picture today when I had breakfast with Isabelle in the morning.

One of the day, went to Tang Shifu for lunch with mommy and daddy.

Had this awesome red wine Meesua and its worth the price even tho is slightly expensive.

They also selling all kinds of herbal soups and bird nest. Yums! My favourite NOW!

I can go eat them everyday!

Anyway, I'm kinda addicted to Instagram because it helps me to edit nice pictures, is the coolest application in Iphone ever! Ok I know too much of craps now, bye :D

Phase of Relationship

2011-10-02T21:59:00.000-07:00

One day I came along with this video in youtube about relationships, I know some of you might seen this before and I am obviously a bit outdated, so below is the video. I remember some times ago many people posted it in Facebook but I don't really bother to watch, and I am not sure what caught me watching it today but it is pretty true and interesting.

It is about many phases of a relationship. And I believe who has been in a relationship before can relate to it.

Honestly, I think that being in a relationship is a risky business because you wouldn't know if your partner would hurt you in the end, dump you away for another person then give you ton of excuses, or hurt you until you wanna die. Who knows? Off course everyone acts very romantically, putting the smile on the face whenever they see you, hiding their true self, give you whatever you want in the very beginning of the relationship. Okay, I mean most of people, not all. The reason I say act is because all these only last for a while, not a long term actions. The funny thing is, we always used to spend time talking on the phone during odd hours not wanting to hang up; ended up with only 2minutes call with "ok, ya, alright, goodnight, bye." No more I love you, sweet dream, I miss you, sleep tight anymore.

Ironically we used to text each other everyday almost every hour then ended up your partner telling you don't text so much anymore, very annoying, I have better things to do than texting. Its pretty hurt, but we can still bear with it because there's this part called toleration. Sometimes, is not because they don't love you anymore, but they just want to be how they used to be.

I think tolerating and understanding is the hardest part to deal with in a relationship in fact that many couples end up breaking up because they think both of them are lack of understanding. And in many types of situations, the more understanding we are, our partner tend to gets more advantages. It's sad but its true. Anyway, I believe everyone has their own level of toleration. And frankly I think toleration has no its own limit, is just something that we set our own. Ok I think I've talk too much craps now and I'm not sure what am i talking about right now (moodless at the moment) so sorry for wasting your precious time reading all these T_T.

Seriously need a break I will come back with some proper entry that make sense :)

Tea time

2011-09-26T09:23:00.000-07:00

Thanks goodness, Klang is no longer a suaku place like people always mention anymore. Or maybe in my own perspective, I always thought Klang would be a kampung place to many people because when we talk about Klang, people would ask where it is; they have no idea klang is somewhere in our country (Malaysia) wtf. But the best thing is, for those people who know about klang, they definitely know about bah kut teh. Nothing else more. Ok, that's not my point. So when we talk about going for a proper date, nobody will ever date in Klang because it doesn't have nice chilling spots or romantic and good environment places. Anyway, for those who thinks that way, is time for you to explore the real Klang now.

Hahahahaha I am just kidding.

I usually don't hang out around klang (I know is ridiculous because i'm staying here), except places like Old Town or Mamaks. So I decided to give it a try to this cafe called 1986, in Botanic Klang. Brought my cousin brother and his wife along who stay in KL because they want some high tea on that day too, and I am actually happy that I didn't disappoint them.

The entrance and counter area. The lady boss is kinda friendly and she packed the cake nicely with extra topping for us for takeaway.

They only open at 11am, but we went there quite early so the cakes are not fully prepared yet. They served kilkenny and all kinds of drinks too :)

The environment is pretty good tho, but they only have limited tables.

The deco on the table. I like the bell tho, wonder if i can ring them to place an order.

Ordered banana chessecake to satisfy our crave first because it looks yummy, is like love in first sight. It taste really cheesy and heavy milk taste. But overall, it was perfect. Not really gelak when usually it does on all cheesecakes, I can have it all by myself. And it is only Rm6.90.

Sum sum (Cousin bro's wife) ordered this- Passion Twist and she said it taste really good.

It is only Rm6.90!

Mocha Temptation ordered by cousin brother who loves mocha really much, and he said was okay only.

Between, it is Rm7.90.

I ordered Tea- Beehive because I cannot take cold drinks and the tea wasn't that bad tho. I love the pot and the tiny cup! Apparently it makes the tea taste better haha.

I really love their mango pudding because it doesn't only looks good, it taste pretty good too!

Not really sweet, but it was okay. And the pudding was really smoothy.

Only for Rm6.90! I just wanna eat it again.

3 of us shared our food together! Look at the banana cheesecake, how can you not try?

They sell pretty earrings too! And it is not too expensive, if i'm not mistaken is not more than Rm15 each. Is like another mini Full House.

Kinda like their earrings and accessories because they are all cute stuffs.

Some camwhore moment, can't wait to try my beehive tea because the pot made me feel excited. So classic!

POSER!

Pikabooooooo!

Cheesecakes with tea, perfect!

Anyway, I don't deny that Klang really has nice cafe now and mostly are all located at Botanic and Centro. Somehow I feel that the cheesecakes are better than secret recipe, i'm not sure but everyone has different taste. And oh, cafe 1986 serves all kind of pasta like carbonara and spaghetti too, haven't got the chance to try them yet but I will definitely try it one day.

So now besides bah kut teh, I can bring my KL friends to klang for yumcha already muahah!

This is the address:

1st Floor, 87,jalan mahogani 5, bandar botanic, 41200 Klang, Malaysia

Tel: 0122758868

So I gotta stop writing now to stop myself thinking of cheesecakes.

Bye!

Exhausted

2011-09-16T22:06:00.000-07:00

You have no idea what is wrong with my life right now, I have started being paranoid and fear of what is going to happen next; everything in my life just seems so scary at this moment. I probably have nothing in mind, is just too hard for me to handle all this stress with the tiny strength i have right now. I just want the world to end now so that all the problems would stop coming to me. I am tired. Too tired.

All I can do is just wait and try to make myself think positive in every way. People always say sweet stuffs can make people happy. So I tried and it actually does. And starbucks hot chocolate unintentionally became one of my daily drug, it just makes me feel better somehow.

Breakfast with daddy one of those day. That is why I love my dad so much.

Recently kinda addicted with this application in iphone, Instagram. You can edit your pictures as pretty as you want.

To be happy is definitely not an easy task for me. I have been too tired of living in fear, worry, stress and suffer. No, I don't want my life to be like this. I just hate myself so much whenever tears naturally rolling down to the cheeks, I just wanna die. I always ask myself what did I do during the past of my life(s) that I have to be so tortured like this. I don't hate myself, but I hate my life. I want to stop all these shits.

& trying to be happy is worse, nobody knows how pain you are inside your heart.

I do not want to be happy anymore, and I don't expect someone to give me any happiness. But please give me a peaceful pill. I just want to stop the fear and worry I have in me right now. I just hope sweet stuffs can calm me down at this moment. I am just too blank to write anything here right now. Bye!

Digestive System

2011-09-07T23:08:00.000-07:00

If you have stomach problems, it could probably bring your life into a major problem. So all in sudden, I am introducing one of my daily drug. Although right now, I am taking tons of vitamins like probiotics and medicines to reduce stomach acid, but off course I also need to protect my stomach lining and improve my stomach digestive system. Currently I am having a serious stomach problem, I feel bloated anytime and nauseous after I eat, and my digestive system is getting slower and slower. After experiencing all these issues, I realised how important is it to take care our stomach and make sure we are eating the right food.

After few times of doctor consultations, he taught me to drink this to get rid of my stomach problem.

Vitagens!

Most of the people nowadays are not eating healthily, we often eating outside foods; either its too oily or contains alot of ajinomoto. But we always prefer foods like this because it is tasty! That is the reason why nowadays there are getting more and more people who are facing stomach problems.

However, I started taking Vitagen 2months ago and my digestive system is really improving!

Vitagen contains billions of live probiotics cultures to improve our gastrointestinal health and helps to improve our stomach digestive system. Not only that, it also helps to absorb nutrients from the food we eat and reduce the risk of intestinal disturbances such as constipation, diarrhea, stomach ulcers, bloating, belching, heartburn and nausea. Few months ago, I was having nauseous and bloated almost 14hours a day, 7 days a week. I am facing nauseous all the day and it was affecting my daily routine, it almost screwed up my entire life. After taking vitagens for 2 months, numbers of having nauseous are getting lesser and lesser unless I eat too oily foods or got starved for too long. I am happy now because I finally see that something is working in my stomach.

As we all know, stomach problem cannot be cure in one day. It takes time to protect our stomach lining and improve digestive system. Therefore, I am still taking vitagens now every 2 bottles a day. And my favorite flavor is grape and I just can't live without it anymore. I have to restock it every 3 days because my brother is taking it too, now i wish I can have my own fridge so that no body is stealing my drinks *just kidding!*.

For those who already knew they have stomach problem:

Stay away from oily and unhealthy foods, we have to practice a healthy eating habits in order to have a healthy system in our body.

Lastly, digestive system plays an important role in our body because if it is damaged, our body cannot absorb any nutritions we consumed. We tend to get sick easily and feel weak if we don't have enough nutritions and vitamins in our body. So guys, let's eat and drink healthily. Those who have stomach problems, do not hesitate to give a try on Vitagen because it really helps.

Hello! Let's be healthy.

See ya.

Jealousy

2011-09-03T20:45:00.000-07:00

I hate being jealous. And wait, I don't jealous because someone is prettier than me, someone is richer than me or someone has things that I don't have. Believe it or not, I am jealous and angry that I can't have A PROPER LIFE. Sincerely, looking at those people in my age, they would probably enjoy their life studying in University, hanging around with friends or shopping. But when I look at myself, why am i have to be stuck at home suffering these pain, why do i have to get this damn sick? Seriously, WHY? I suffer the whole 7 days a week, none of the day are peaceful.

Ironically, people don't believe how suffer I am, they thought I'm giving excuse of being lazy. Ironically, people thought I am on diet, i deserve like this. Ironically, people thought I didn't eat medicines regularly, I didn't eat on time, I deserve being like this.

BUT I THINK, LIFE IS IRONIC!

However, how do I not hate myself? Its been a year since I am suffering for stomach intestinal infection and off course, I have been taking medicines on time, trying to eat regularly/healthy foods, and avoid those oily/spicy/sour foods because it can make your stomach got worse. Also, it has been a year since I stop taking cold drinks except vitagens I am taking daily. I have no idea how serious my intestinal infection is, but it is giving me a major problem in my daily routine. I have to worry everytime I go out, I have to worry what I am eating, I can't go shopping, I can't go yumcha, I can't go study. Worse to, I am afraid whenever people ask me out for dinner because I can't eat instead of vomit, I feel so awkward siting around when people is eating while I have the urge to puke. Not because I don't want to, but I will get nauseous easily and usually it last for 2-3 hours or even whole day. Imagine how's my life being screwed?

It wasn't so bad at the beginning, but it is getting even more worse lately. It got me so worried, therefore, I googled online to check if there's any ways to cure this kind of sick. Ridiculously I have tried so many ways but it still doesn't helps. Fed up!

The point is, along the whole year I'm trying so hard but SICK DOESN'T GETS BETTER.

If were you, will you get fed up too?

Sometimes life is like this, we do not get what we want, even a simple proper life. People always say, be positive. But I believe no matter how positive this person is, there's still one day she/he will give up if they don't get the things they want. People says, be happy, is just the matter of you want or don't want to. But sincerely, the point is cannot. How to be happy when your life is being screwed? How to be positive when you have tried so hard and you got nothing in the end?

I have been telling myself to be patience, good things come at the end. I always tell myself next month have to be good, but by the time passed, i got even more fed up because I don't see things are improving. Honestly, I've got so tired of living life like this. I don't mind if i'm poor, I don't mind if don't get branded stuffs or good foods, but at least give me a proper life. I am still hoping that things would get better one day, off course I want it to recover as fast as possible. Even though I'm already fed up with my own life, but what to do beside facing the fact and solve it?

If you're someone who can help me, please save this poor little girl.

To pretend you are ok is harder than anything else.

I really hope the happy in me are real.

Anyway, I understand that there's a lot people out there are ways more suffer than I do. Situation like this makes me appreciate everything I am having now and everyone around me. Life is never easy, i believe different people has different things to deal with in their life. Being positive is hard sometimes, but if there's a will there's a hope.

Sincerely, I pray for myself to recover NOW!

Hello, September 2011!

2011-08-31T21:10:00.000-07:00

Finally get back to the blogging mojo! People always asks what am i busying, but honestly nothing. I do nothing everyday, i'm just LAZY! Wanted to update the blog few days ago but everytime when i start typing, I feel like i'm writing craps, things that just doesn't make sense. But this time I'm gonna be cincai *haha* because I realize this blog is dying, nobody is reading! (T_T)

Anyway, Hi guys! How are you doing?

Ok Let's welcome September, time flies. I started being paranoid already because I have to decide whether to take my degree abroad or local. Ya i know i know I have been worrying this for quite some times, but who knows time really passed so fast! SEPTEMBER ALREADY?! But anyway, for those who read my previous few entries probably know why because of some health issue and so its not up to me to decided to stay or to leave. Everyone has been telling me it's tough to live alone, especially staying in unfamiliar places with strange people, and also when you're sick you tend to get home sick easily. Well, I guess with my condition like this I'll most prolly hide under the blanket and cry everynight. I can't imagine that! However, I seriously think that it is very important to take care of our own health. It can leads to many concerns and worries. Look, I'm one of the example! So, please take good care of health.

I sincerely wish that my body can be strong! Please let me recover, I need to be a happy kid like others too.

Anyway, It's Merdeka too! Happy Independence day, Malaysia! No matter how far I go, I will always remember you are my home. Very interesting picture below, one of my friend who loves our country so much.

Picture credits to @nataliechai.

Last but not least, hope it's a new beginning from this month onwards! Lets pray that everything go smoothly, wish that everything to be good. I sincerely want to recover from this sickness as fast as i can, I promise to take care of my health properly once i'm recover. Let's hope september is a good month to start everything all over again :) See ya.

珍惜！

2011-08-22T22:04:00.000-07:00

人，真的要学会懂得珍惜。

我们每一个人都随着岁月成长，渐渐地我们会发觉身边的人都会慢慢地离我们而去。能够不面对事实吗？做人，能够学会不坚强吗？心，再痛，再难过，也会成为过去。往往很多时候，我们失去了才会懂得珍惜。有时做人，真的有点犯贱，拥有的时候却不理不睬，失去了才知道它的价值。有时候，真的希望时间可以停留下来，好好让自己反省一下到底有没有珍惜现在拥有的每一件人，事，物。

敬爱的外婆在上个礼拜逝世了。我们每一个人都祈求您在另外一个世界过得好好的。

一个月前，外婆搬进来跟我们一起住，因为心脏衰落的她需要人家的照顾。这一个月一路走来，每天看着她辛苦地唉声叹气，而且又行动不便，看了真叫人觉得心疼。从小到大，跟外婆相处的时间不多，只是在新年的时候，婆婆都会做一些我们爱吃的，偶尔去叔叔的店吃，都会看到外婆很勤劳地帮叔叔煮饭，洗鱼，等等的工作。虽然她老了，可是还是很爱工作，一旦叫她休息，她就会觉得无所事事，很不自在。都84岁了，可是对每一件事情她还是可以牢牢记住。问她十多二十年的事情，她都可以一五一十的告诉我们。这一个月来，她都会一直问我们，到底要怎样，为什么她会变成这样。可是，我们每一个人都不知到要怎样回答。也许，人就是这样。很多事情都不得不由我们去面对。一切的事情都好想已经注定好了一样。

去年外婆的生日。

满脸每次都带着笑容，处处都为人着想。外婆年轻的时候，不管别人家有什么事情，她都会去帮忙。不论是做百事红事，只要需要帮忙的她都会帮。凡事认识我外婆的人都说我外婆人很好。虽然以前的外婆我不是很认识，但是这一个月以来外婆在我们的家，她每次说的话都是要我们好，她就满足了。她只要她的儿女孙子们好好的，她就心满意足了。已经生病到没有力的她，可是嘴里说出来的都是为了她的子女，孙子们。

今年的一月。

今年新年的时候，我们还带了婆婆一起去Sepang Gold Coast跟我们一起去旅行。应该就是唯一一次和最后一次跟外婆去旅行了吧。当时的她，还可以陪我们一起走，一起玩！而且还会一直跟我们开玩笑。

转眼间，时间好像过得特别快。外婆现在已经不在了。我们儿女孙子们能做的，就是为您好好祈祷，好让您安心上路，去到另外一个世界过得好好的。虽然您已经不在了，可是却会永远停留在我们心里。

虽然心里真的很难过，可是人总是要面对残酷的事实。在上天看着我们的婆婆也希望我们过得好好的。珍惜眼前人的道理虽然我们每一个人都懂，可是真正的珍惜却要等到失去后才会理解。人，就是这样。有些事情后悔了，还来得及补救；但是也有很多时候，后悔却来不及了。所以啊，我们都要珍惜现在所拥有的，珍惜身边的每一个人，更需要对自己好一点。有些人或许觉得太晚了，可是我认为不管是什么时候只要自己真正懂得了就不算晚，因为我们已经懂了珍惜的意义。有些人，走了就再也回不来。有些事，忘了就再也想不起。有些事情，失去了就永远无法得到。。。而我们现在能做的就事珍惜现在所拥有的。所以啊，生命中的亲情，友情来之不易，要好好珍惜。

Hope

2011-08-02T05:26:00.000-07:00

Picture taken err 8 months ago? Okay never mind, that's not the point :)

Frankly, August has come too fast for me because there are too many things are not back on track yet. Suffering much? Yes! Supposingly this is the month where I need to apply for degree in south Australia but I guess everything has to delay again. I have come to the stage of hating myself because I feel so helpless that I can barely do anything, when eat also became a major problem. Never once in my life I have feel this pathetic until this year, everything sucks to maximum. I really try so hard, because I don't deserve all this.

Well, lets say if I don't get to take degree in South Australia next year; but I won't give up any hope to go there anytime. Off course not for holidays, but studying abroad has always be my dream. Let's not just be a dream then. So anyway, I have been reading random blogs lately from those bloggers who are studying abroad right now; like seriously, jealousy up to maximum haha. But never mind, I am chasing towards my dream! Let's imagine if i'm wearing a sleeveless tee and shorts with scandals, carrying a bags with good camera in it, walking around in the city capturing every moment and places i go, even if its alone, I wouldn't mind (Off course is best with someone you love lah). Okeh, imagine is good, because it gives hope. Although life is pretty miserable at the moment, but I believe there's this ONE DAY, everything will change. Do not try to demolish my hope, thank you.

2011-07-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

4 Freaking Memories That I Can't Forget:

1. Tomyam Claypot Yee Mee

The place where we had our Tomyam Claypot Yee Mee. It is at Mentari Leisure Commerce Square, A1 restaurant, the place where I had my best tomyam everr! Not only me, but majority of my friends who have tried love it too! We used to have tomyam claypot almost everyday + a can of Coke, either for breakfast or lunch. Even though we already moved to Taylors Lakeside Campus and there's variety of food there, but we still often drop by at LCS for tomyam! Reasonable price and yummy. See! Awesome foods are always not healthy. This place used to be our hang out spot, and also one of my favorite restaurant, but NOT NOW ANYMORE! Cannot eat tomyam in my whole entire life.

2. A Bunch Of Friends Who Went Through 2 and The Half Year Together

Not to forget Eric and Kim Chun, both who always help us-girls to carry our heavy bags and books all the time. And also the both Klang boys who I used to rush assignments with during midnight, making coffee, giving me cigarettes, eat korean maggee mee and bought red bull to keep me awake LOL! And obviously, the group of us used to hang out together everywhere we go, to the meeting room, library, meet lecturers, discuss assignments, breakfast, lunch, dinner, vacations, swim, cook, sing-k, or even sleep together. Some people says 2 and half year is too long, but I think its pretty short when you've met a bunch of awesome friends like this.

3. Approximately 16 Years Passion

I am the girl where my mom encouraged me to dance since I was young. Used to go ballet classes almost everyday, even on the weekends without blaming tired or lack of time and rest. During highschool, i used to head down to ballet classes after school, my life was mainly study, dance, eat and sleep. Many people thought its lifeless but its pretty interesting to me. I still remember, I used to injured badly and toes bleeding almost everyday, but the satisfaction is totally unexplainable. People asked, why do I stop then? Mainly because the works and assignments in University are so stressful, I have no choice but to just temporarily stop. So now, when I'm done with college but I'm dealing with some health issue. Pathetic much.

4. Relationship

People always says when a relationship come to the stage of being very close, or already get used to each other, they slowly drift apart. And that is true. Still remember the first few months we have been together, we used to text, call and see each other everyday. Boyfriend has no doubt to go all the way to PJ just to bring me home after class, or bring me all the way up to sunway for dinner from Klang. We tolerate as possible as we could, there's almost no conflict at all during the first few months. We used to hang out every weekend, go for our favorite foods and favorite hang out spot together, and also spent our time as much as we want. Basically, there's totally no hesitate to make any promises with each other.

When time passed, we slowly realized that not everything is as perfect as we thought. We realized that there are many things that we can't click together, is just that the toleration is enough to bring us come along. When we are done with tolerating and understanding each other, we tend to realize that we are not meant to be together. However, I perfectly think that it happens to every relationship on earth. And today, we tend to fight over every single thing, we tend to not accept what each other do, we tend not to listen each other anymore. Why? Because we are tired, we are enough with each other.

But yet, the love is still there.
Anyway, I believe that we are strong enough to go through all these. I believe that if you really want something, you won't let go.

<3 Memories.

Stressed

2011-07-21T22:03:00.000-07:00

Emotionally stress to the max.

Thinking back what have been happening this few weeks are really saddening much, but I'm pretty happy that my boyfriend is always here by my side going through all this up and down with me all the while. But anyway, everything is still not back on the track yet. Over the past few weeks, grandma was admitted to the hospital staying in ICU, the doctors claimed that she couldn't pass the day itself so relatives decided to just send her home. It was a week ago thing, but i guess grandma really try hard to survive and so everyone of us have to take turn to take care of her now. Oh between, she is 84 this year. And she is currently staying over at my place which this is why I've got so emotionally stress, in a way.

At the same week itself, brother got into hospital because a big group of people whacked him in the school because of some 'facebook-fighting-issue' (I don't know what lah) and he was bleeding until his uniform full of bloods. Scary much. So, parents changed school for him to this International School in Klang which is quite relatively new but it costs 1k plus per month school fees. It is probably expensive for a highschool fees. But he is pretty much happy (off course lar parents spend so much haha), because he get to learn different languages like german, french etc and get to know japanese girls wtf.

Between, do you concern about me? HAHA! I will tell you later or in the next post :)

Waking up early in the morning with hopes is never easy, especially when I myself are not in any good condition yet. I came to realized that everything is not under control; but then..there's always the hope there I believe. Some people who knows me understand how suffering I am going through this by myself everyday, even that I've came to the point of giving up but I still hold on, and move on. I can tell that, this is not an easy task. Mom has suggested if I would see a psychologist because I got so worry and stress but yet I don't know what I'm stressing and worrying about.

For now, I don't hope that tomorrow i can go shopping or elsewhere to enjoy myself with friends.

All I'm hoping is.. I can get out of this sick and get well soon.

Like seriously, 1 hope is more than enough.

Just saying

2011-07-10T20:55:00.000-07:00

Hi, I am back.

You must be wondering why this girl always write something weird in her blog so today I am going to write about everyone's favourite, Facebook. One of the reason because I am sick I'm always home so that I have to brainstorm a lot of topic to write to entertain my dearly readers. (No exciting outing or events to blog at all T_T) I'm so sorry. So right now, I decided to blog about Facebook because it has already became part of my life that I can't live without but there's something that doesn't make sense to me:

First, I don't understand why there's people who added so many friends that they don't even know who they are in facebook?

I am not sure if they know who they are, but somehow it doesn't make sense to me that you know 1000 of them or more in your friend's list? Ridiculous. I am not saying that they can't have (because it is their personal facebook profile) but I really wonder how many they actually know among thousands of them? It's true, facebook is a social network where you can make friends with everyone. But how sure you know you make friends with 1000 of them and make them to your REAL FRIENDS in reality? So, its kind of bullshit.

So, the only reason that I thought of why people wanna add so many friends in facebook is because 1) They wannabe popular. The amount of friends in their facebook profile apparently tells people how "famous" they are that so many people wanted to be friends with her/him. 2) They really wanna make friends. But anyhow it doesn't make sense to me that you so free until you can make friends with 1000 or more of them. Ok fine, I am #justsaying.

First of all, I guess most of the famous people don't simply approve everyone in facebook, unless they have a fan's page! So seriously, for those that wannabe famous why didn't you open a fan's page since you so kiasu? I am not judging anything but I have seen people have 1000 friends in 1 week??!! ARE YOU SERIOUSLY MAKING 1000 FRIENDS IN A WEEK? I am #justsaying because it simply doesn't make sense at all.

Its funny when someone posted in facebook telling everyone that they wanna delete friends that they don't know in facebook. BUT WAIT, WHY YOU APPROVED OR ADDED THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE THEN?

Secondly, I don't understand why people simply "like"ing status/pictures in facebook. Seriously can please some one make sense to me if there's anything to LIKE when somebody says "Hello." or "It's raining" kind of things? Some people even LIKE status like "I'm sick" or "I'm hungry." OK SERIOUSLY, CAN ANYONE PLEASE POINT OUT WHAT TO LIKE IN IT?

Thirdly, facebook has this places check-in thingy like foursquare. But why are there people check in to every single places every minute whenever they go? No privacy for themselves or they want someone to meet them there or they want to tell everyone that they actually go so many places?

Anyway, its your facebook so you like lah. I'm #justsaying only.

Relationship

2011-06-28T23:54:00.000-07:00

Having a boyfriend who is much older than you is not fun! WHY?

In many ways, people always say better find a boyfriend who is older so that they can take care of you, they understand you better, and most importantly they know how to truly care about you. Whereas having a boyfriend who is younger/same age as you, they are unlikely to understand you and unlikely to handle problems properly. I kinda agreed with this, but not in every word because this doesn't apply to every man in the world. Not all men would have better understanding, not all men would truly care about someone, not all men are good when they get old. Summarize into everything, man in older age doesn't mean they can take care of you. Especially those men who can't even take care of themselves.

Why do I say that having a boyfriend who is older IS NOT FUN?

"Because...They have been through a lot of things that you have not! Basically means that they can do anything better than you based on their experience!"

First of all:

They hide things better than you.
They know how to cheat better than you.
They lie better than you.
They know how to secretly flirt with someone better than you.
They know how to use psychology to play in a relationship better than you.

If they were to do all these above, they would have do better than you. Whether if you agree or not, but I think its very true. And these are all reasons why I got so worried after having a boyfriend who is older than me, INSECURE!

So anyway, Jeff (my boyfriend) & I have been together for nearly 2 years and even though I don't catch him flirting or texting other girls but its not right when I found out he lied because when he lied, I assumed he got something to hide, when I assumed he got something to hide, I assumed that he cheat. And all this makes sense. When you caught your man lying, he might tell you he's lying for better future, and it is totally BULLSHITS. I always believe that there's no reason to continue believing in a relationship when your man started to lie, because we have lost the trust. Anyway, I'm just giving an example although Jeff don't really do that to me but just because he is older, it makes me so much insecure.

I have this bad habit that I love to ask Jeff about his past with all his ex-girlfriends because it really sounds exciting to me because I wanna know how special am i compare with them. I always like asking how many girls you slept with before? How many times you have cheated this girl with another? How do you fuck them on the bed? So everytime I asked he gave me different answer as if like he lost count how many girls he slept with and all. I get annoyed, and then we ended up fighting and not talking for days. Or I just get angry because he don't make me sounds special at all.

I know how silly I am always wondering how Jeff treat all his ex-girlfriends, what did he promised them, and most importantly I caught him sent an email few years ago telling one of his ex-girlfriend that he would married her but he explains that he was just playing her in that relationship. I'm kinda not believing it because I believe man likes to tell the same thing to different women. One day he might tell that he wants to married me but after years he would tell another girl he was just playing with me. Ok, its the same thing. Unless he really married me one day, then I'm special.

BUT ANYWAY, ALL WOMAN ALWAYS WANT TO FEEL SPECIAL!

If only you make her feel she is special, most probably she won't care how good you have treated all your ex-girlfriends.

In conclusion, I don't mean that Jeff is not good or he doesn't treat me well but I am just giving example that it is actually very insecure having a boyfriend who is older than you. You have to accept all the facts that you can't be any special because all the special has already given to their ex-girlfriends, you got to accept the fact that he have slept with so many girls and now its only your turn. You got to accept the fact that if he would have to cheat, he would cheat better than you and not letting you to find out easily.

So, think wisely if you gonna have a boyfriend who is MUCH OLDER than you.

And dang dang dang dang........

I am that lil writer who disclosed little secret with her boyfriend, Jeff.

Opinions

2011-06-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

Hello, Jeng Jeng Jeng...

One of my recent favorite picture pfft.

Although I am not superstitious but sometimes FengShui Master really impressed me. So, I met this fengshui master on Sunday with the boyfriend's family because they are moving to their new house; I am not sure if they are superstitious but possibly they just want to bring fortune to their family and life. Apparently a lot of chinese do that, I personally don't believe in it but if we think deeply there's actually no harm believing them. The thing that impressed me was they can tell everything, my heart actually goes "wah, how do you know that?" kinda things. It is so impressing..

As I know it is quite expensive to invite them, but lots of chinese willing to pay this amount of money because Feng Shui can helps to correct the negative energies of your environment and bring the positive, helps to clear our mind of negative thoughts, helps to restore balance by subtle and simply changes to bring peace and harmony to our life. Off course there are many more if we want to talk in details. However, the FengShui Master was telling us where to place the bed, wardrobe and mirror, and also who to sleep in which room, what picture to hang and what need to be added in the house to help increase the energy. I am not sure if we can believe it all, but I am sure FengShui master has their own power so that can tell sort of things like that. Anyway, it is quite an impressive experience.

Besides that, a friend of mine called me few days ago sharing which University is more ideally if we going to study abroad. Reason because we have to apply visa and register earlier, and also have to see where should we stay and many other things. But the first thing that came in my mind was I'm afraid to even think about it because I can't leave home when I'm having sick right now (if you read my previous posts). Nobody knows how long it takes to fully recover, so I'm actually afraid to think of studying abroad although I really wish to. Headache. So, below is those University in my list :)

RMIT University in Melbourne. It is one of the top 100 Universities in the world. It is slightly expensive than other University in Australia, but the campus looks really nice to me. It was my first choice previously, but I have changed my mind because I don't think I want to live in the city. Places like new zealand are more preferable. I'm more like a kampung girl haha. If I would to change my mind again, I will give a try to this University but I'm afraid if people stereotype me because I don't club. You know lah, majority of city people are wild. Which I'm more to romantic and homely type @_@

University of South Australia in Adelaide. This is my first choice of all, one of the reason because I'm already taking Unisa in Taylors University so it is easier for me to apply to study in Adelaide. Second reason is because I heard alot of people say that Adelaide is more chilling, unlike the busy city style. Third reason is because I have quite number of friends are going there as well so I can have someone to keep me accompanied. See the picture above, the campus really looks so much chilling and relaxing. If I were to choose University, I would see the environment first than other things.

University of Queensland in Brisbane. It wasn't in my list but my friend told me that they can have good offer too compare to the 2 Universities above. I actually don't know anything about this University, but I guess their environment is pretty cool. If you know anything about this University, please do share with me I would love to know more.

Liverpool University in England. Okeh, it is not in my list but because the University is in England; it looks so tempting.

So anyway, I would be very grateful if you can share some opinions with me which are the good Universities. Right now, I am afraid of making decision because I am not sure which place suits me more and I am not sure by the time am I really fully recover from sick. Headache sangat grr. Don't even dare to think about it at all T__T.

But it will be good if you (readers) are kind enough to share your opinions.

Thank you very much.

Kiss

2011-06-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story. It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender; because this kiss already has within it that surrender.

Oldies

2011-06-12T07:44:00.000-07:00

Hello.

Dang dang dang...

Yeah, its me with my favorite kimchi noodle/rice. It is one of the Korean restaurant in my University, so my friends and I (specifically Natalie Chai, Francisca and Adele Chow) were all jump into this restaurant during breaktime and we eat like a hungry ghost wtf. Okeh, it was actually my favorite but not now anymore because I can't consume any spicy food like this in my whole entire life ever again. I have to stop loving it for goodness sake.

Oh well, see my picture already know this picture don't know from how many months ago.

Probably 5 or 6 months, hair is short and still dark in color. Extremely retarded grr!

I'm already mia for 6months, you can't see me anywhere because besides staying home or going to the office once in a while, i still prefer staying at home. I feel safe and secure because I can sleep once I have sudden headache, migraine or I can run to the toilet and puke once stomach is not working properly. Unlike staying outside, people staring me with cock face thinking what is wrong with this girl. Haha okeh lah, I know i might sound too serious to you, but i seriously hope to get back some normal life. I promised to visit the temple for once (even though I don't really believe) but I guess it is worth paying a visit to ask the god what is wrong with my life right now. Pathetic. No jokes.

It was actually suggested by the boyfriend's mom. She has been asking me for like more than 3 times, okeh I think i should believe it for once, like seriously.

So anyway, I am having such a long break and supposingly I can start my degree on July but I am going to just drag it till next year february. I have no choice but to wait till my sick is fully recover. Seriously, what is wrong with my life now. *askthegod*

Crazy classmates! Our tomyam claypot yee mee, our kimchi noodle, and our masak masak day!

2 and the half years is like 2 months. Time ah time, why you passes so fast!

Okeh, its time for me to rest now.

Good night :)

Kuala Lumpur Pudu Jail

2011-06-04T23:19:00.001-07:00

Hello.

I always wonder why I fancy history so much than any other things that girls will do. I really love reading histories because it keeps me wanting to know more about them. Err, but I'm more interested on those mystery history that no one can explain, yet. Exp like: "Does year 0001 actually exists?" or "Where human came from, how?" I know, you might think that I am crazy; but this topic already built my curiosity since I was young. However, I always try googling history to find out more about them. Or maybe just watch History Channel all day.

Until last friday, I was watching this Kuala Lumpur Pudu Jail's history on Astro history channel; it really caught my attention. I know everyone in Malaysia familiar with Pudu Jail, you can keep reading if you want to know more about it, or else I'm sure you will be bored to dead reading this post because I know majority of people hates history and want to kill them. *evil smiles*

I actually grabbed information from the internet, but I'm just gonna summarize it and make it short.

So, here's Malaysia true story about Puju Jail......

Pudu Prison also called as Pudu Jail was build by the British in 1895 as a prison in Malaysia in Kuala Lumpur. It was used to house criminals such as drug offenders and also corporal punishment through rotan caning. But it is no longer used as a prison and while it was once open as a museum. Those who have visited the Pudu Prison described the cells as totally horrific.

This is how the jail looks like.
In history channel, they actually shows that how all the prison got hanged and die. Creepy.

The walls in the Pudu Jail. I guess we can see how those prisons want to explain for themselves.

There are rumours that Pudu Prison is haunted. Some people saw a strange indian man walking the halls of the prison and disappeared, some heard screaming from rooms where hangings have taken place, or hearing someone/something is taking bath. So, do you believe that the older the structure is, the more likely it is to be haunted?

It is sad that this building is being demolished. One of the prison said we should keep this building because it has historical value because it is the place where he wasted most of his time in life and learnt how to start his life all over again.

But now, this place it is gone.

Heya!

2011-06-03T00:08:00.000-07:00

Hello,
I'm banana. Err, long and sweet.
I am Nate Archibald from gossip girl. Bye!

Gastric #2

2011-05-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

Eh hey guys.

Its kinda hard for me to come out with a proper post update because at the mean time I have nothing exciting to share with, besides telling how's my sick has been doing, how I feel or how am i doing lately. Thanks for those who showing their concerns to me and don't worry because I am still doing good over here, not awesome not perfect but at least I am still okay. I am more than grateful for those who care for me so much, really appreciate lots.

After 6months time, I barely remember how exactly I look like before this, with a standard weight and healthy fresh looking person who like to go out so much at night. Err but for now, I am still under medication and when you see me someday out there, please don't get shock seeing how skinny I am right now and I'm nowhere near anorexic; I'm just losing weight, only okeh! But I am sure I will start gaining weight if I eat regularly and continue taking medications until I am fully recover. (I will elaborate later why). Just give me some times, I promise I will come back with a fresh looking healthy person like before, or maybe better than that.

Basically, here's a post sharing about "What is gastric" from what i've learn through my experience because majority of you might think that gastric is very common and nothing serious that can affects our life. In my case, I already proved you are wrong. The fact is, gastric is common but it is dangerous. A lot of people these days, especially those who has to deal with busy lifestyle that barely make themselves eat on time or worse till skipping proper meals; therefore, this is "why" gastric is so common.

Unfortunately, gastric has no cure. It depends on your own determination whether you can eat regularly and stop eating oily spicy foods. During this 6months time, I have been really suffering because I have to puke after every single meal even though I've tried to eat on time. Sometimes, even when I don't eat but I still feel like throwing up because of the acid contains in my stomach.

Eventually, my parents dragged me to the specialist at Sunway medical centre.
You really have no choice anymore when your doctor ask you to do the gastroscope test. Which mean, they will put in a pipe into your mouth, through your throat into your stomach. The purpose is to see exactly what causes you having gastric, what's the reason you feel pain and keep vomiting. Google it if you wanna know more about it. So yes, I actually did the test last week and the doctor said that my stomach and intestine got swollen and infected. Long term medication is needed and no more alcohol, spicy, sour, oily foods in my whole entire life.

Anyway, eat regularly is really important.

And for those who feel stomach pain and vomit very often, I will suggest you to seek for specialist instead of those doctor out there because based in my experience, their medicines doesn't help at all. Especially for those who feel pain very often, I suggest you to see a specialist as soon as possible before it became stomach ulcer or cancer.

It is important to have 3 meals everyday, no matter you are hungry or not you just have to eat. I am kinda regret but I promise I will eat regularly everyday no matter how.

So, I hope this post really give you guys an impact to eat regularly from today onwards! And also, helping those who has gastric problem too :)

Hello

2011-05-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, how are you doing lately?

Sorry if you think this post is all about craps because I just wanna keep this updated all the time. Since I am having holidays, and I don't wanna be lazy; so, I am here. Right now while waiting for my degree next year, I'm working in a logistic company as customer service which I think it is a good thing for me. Many people has been questioning me why did't I go for any public relations and event's company that are related to what I am studying now, but I guess working at anywhere is just all about gaining experience. I don't really care whether it is relevant to what I'm studying because I really want to learn different things in different field. But I am not saying that I gonna waste what I've learned in university, is just that from my point, there's no harm learning other things.

So far, thing has been doing good and work isn't that busy at all. However, I have extra time to catch up gossip girl season 4. Have you guys watched it yet? It is awesome.

I will come back with a better post update soon.

Short updates.

2011-05-15T08:11:00.000-07:00

Officially done with my two and the half year diploma in Taylors University, it is actually quite hard to believe that I'm already done with this. Two and the half year seems to be too short for me now, I could still clearly remember how I made friends with those bunch of people.

Still got half a year to go until I continue my degree. I'm actually very confuse which University am i suppose to go. But I will just leave it aside until my gastric is fully recover because this would drag me to a major problem that I might just need to take my degree in local. I can never/ don't want to bring any sickness if I would have the chance to study abroad. I am trying my very best to take any kind of medications, consult doctors and forcing myself to eat no matter how, just hoping that it can recover as soon as possible so that I can continue my normal lifestyle. However , it is very hard for me to decide where should i take my degree now. But off course, I don't wish to missed the chance to study abroad when my dad already offers me to.

Gastric is getting more and more worse for now, even though I've done with my 2 weeks treatment. It actually gets alot better during the 2 weeks, but I have no idea why it is back to worse again. Lose of appetite and lose of weight is the major problem now. I can't eat properly, and weight is losing incredibly. From my normal weight 42kg dropped to 35kg at the moment. I know this is very dangerous, but I really trying the best of me to cure it no matter how. It already last for more than half a year, I am already at the edge of giving up; but each time I keep telling myself not to.

Decided to stay home during this long holidays so that I can take care of my eating habit properly; but since that got people offer me a job, so I am just gonna work. Probably 3 or 4 hours a day, working hours flexible. And also it is near my boyfriend's house. So that I think it is very much convenient for me. Due to the office is at klang, it makes things alot easier and not wasting thing to be stuck in the jam.

Anyway, here's only a little short update for you guys :)
Will be back soon.

Happy Mother's day #2 + Grandma's birthday

2011-05-11T01:02:00.000-07:00

Every year in this month, aunties uncles from different state and country will come over to my place for a simple mother's day celebration and grandma's birthday. Apparently, grandma's birthday is seems to be important than chinese new year or any other celebrations which I really don't know why. So, my house was a messed last weekends but I really love it so much because I personally like my aunties and uncles to come over, and all the kids are playing around. I kinda miss the mahjong sounds now, and off course I wish my aunties would stay here longer.

If i'm not mistaken, grandma has 10 kids but every year her birthday celebration was organized by my parents and only few aunties together. Where's the other kids then? Oh well, I'm not saying that my parents and my FEW aunties cannot take the responsibilities to take care of my grandma or organize a celebration to make her happy, but come on lah... you married already means she's not your mother? You call her mother when only she gives you money to spend? There's one particular uncle (& his wife), they are like that. Act pity in front of my grandma, pretend to be good, pretend that they care my grandma the most. I know lah, THEY WANT MONEY MA! When comes to reality, when my grandma stop giving them money, they stop acting. So, they were actually invited to attend grandma's birthday, but what the fuck you told us you don't know about your own mother's birthday? Uncle (& your wife), can you please bang wall and die? I'm sorry to be rude here, but I really feel sympathy for you because you don't even care your own mother. Sad or not?

So, it was actually a good thing that all of us don't need to see them, because we don't like them.

It makes the whole celebration so much better.

(Sorry that the paragraph above is abit emotional, but I seriously cannot take it to see people treating their own mother like this. I really wish that their own kids do the same to them in the future like how they did to my grandma now)! Yes, I'm cursing you.

Anyway, I'm happy to see my cousins and everyone of them brought their girlfriend/wife too.

#1 Cousin brother - Elbert and his wife Georgina.

#2 Cousin brother- Elwin and his wife Yim Sum.

#3 Cousin brother and his wife Tifanny.

#4 Cousin brother - Kelvin and his girlfriend.

#5 Dang! Its me and my baby boyfriend.

#6 Family photo.

#7 Its me with the cute chubby niece. * Her eyes are super big*

#8 Super adorable! Cute girl acting cuter.

#9 Its me with the nephew.

#10 The aunties that I'm close with.

#11 It's me and babyJeffry.

#12 The girls <3

Please bear with me, I know my photography skills abit the fail. I promise to take better photos and improve my photoshop skills.

Overall, it was a good celebration. Can't wait till next year, can't wait my aunties to stay over at my place again. Anyway, happy birthday to grandma and happy mother's day to all the mothers in the world.

Happy Mother's day #1

2011-05-08T09:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's day to all the mothers in the world.

So, here's a little story of me and my mom that I would like to share.

Since primary school time, I always asked myself why mama cane me so hard even I've got 90marks in my exams. Why she always scolded me so seriously when I just did a little wrong thing? Why she don't hold me tight when I learn how to cycle so that I won't fall? Why she let me learn so many other things and I don't have time to play and rest? Why, mom? At that age, I was a little upset why mom and I just don't click together, why she don't love me is it?

But now, I completely understand she (off course and my dad) love me more than anyone else in the world. She caned me when I got 90marks in my exams so that I will try harder to get full marks at the following papers. She scolded me so hard whenever I just did a little wrong thing because she wants me to always remember those mistakes I've done so I won't repeat again. She don't hold me when I learn how to cycle because when I fall, I will stand up all by myself. And she let me learn so many other activities because she knows that study is not everything in life, she wants me to explore more so that I can have a better future. During teenager time, she started controlling my love's life. Whenever I got into a relationship, she will start criticizing this guy here and there are not good which I don't understand why she wants to care so much still. But today, she makes me understand that choosing boyfriend is not like choosing what you gonna wear. But you're choosing someone who will take care of you for a lifetime because mom won't be here with me till i get old.

Mom, I know you give all the best to me.

Sorry for making you so upset sometimes and you have to tears because of me, sorry that if I made you disappointed. I know that I can't return everything you gave it to me, but I promise I will take care of you like how you take care of me when you are old. I wont abandon you like how other kids abandoned their mom. I know that you are always on my side no matter I'm wrong or right, I know you protect me and brother more than anyone else. I promise I will give you the best too.

Mom, I love you lots :)

Traffic Jam in Malaysia

2011-05-05T03:17:00.000-07:00

It is pretty much annoying when everyday you wake up early in the morning, the first thing that makes you headache is- "Grrr, I'm gonna stuck in the jam again....!" In fact that the traffic is getting really worse lately, there's no such thing as waking up early to avoid jam anymore. Sometimes I really doubt my own driving skills, wonder why I left my house at 6.50am (which I think is already super early) but I still reach University after more than an hour jam. I completely understand that most of us are facing the same issue, but isn't it making people feel depressing? Tell me about it.

However, traffic jam in Malaysia is pretty much part of our lives. Sad thing or not?

This is abit ridiculous when every single morning you talk to yourself: " Wow, the traffic is really bad today." The numbers of cars never seems to get lesser. So, since when it is good? Don't tell me last year lah okay.

I decided to discuss about this issue, because I believe that I am not the only one who get annoyed about the traffic, it seems to be like everyone is complaining about it. Working class people work hard all day, students study hard all day, so tell me who won't get annoyed being stuck in the jam EVERY SINGLE DAY? Moreover, time is important. Who would want to get stuck in the jam for 2 hours without complaining anything?

I'm not saying that we should blame the government. Because we are also part of the responsibility.

But we really need an efficient public transportation and good traffic regulation. Till today, public transports never improve,yet. We don't see cabs everywhere, we don't see bus coming on time, we don't see ktm is any better. Sometimes, I really feel sad for those working class people, wearing suits and working pants BUT standing under the sun waiting for the bus to come! Have to sweat all over your body only can reach the office. Besides that, ktm also doesn't come on time; either the train delay or the train broke down.

So, why people drives? Because the public transport services are NOT RELIABLE, yet.

Why so many cars? Because everyone prefer driving than taking public transports.
Why jam? Because everyone is driving their own.

If only we have better public transportations, I believe that everyone wouldn't want to drive their own anymore. Save cost, and convenient. I really am hoping that seeing the traffic is improving, seeing public transports can serve us better. I understand that jam during peak hour is acceptable, but seriously 9am? 10am? 11am? PEAK HOUR?

BUT, this is not the problem that can be solved by the government itself, but we also need to contribute to our own country.

My Wongpaktan

2011-04-29T22:59:00.000-07:00

Things seem to be so wrong these few days, but I've no ideas what exactly it is. Probably I'm frustrated over people who didn't bother my existence and efforts. I always wonder if there's something hiding behind me, not because I don't trust them but they don't even give me the trust to put on them. I will probably just put these aside, I've no idea how to care.

So, if you followed my twitter you will probably see me complaining about I've to share my own bed with someone else. Few weeks ago, grandma stayed over at my place for a week because aunties are all going for holidays. I was stress because I can sense that mom would probably ask me to share my bed with my grandma. Since young, I have this issue sharing my bed with others. Especially people who are sick, keep coughing and sneezing- on my bed. I don't mean that I dislike grandma to come over, but I really cannot take it when people who are especially sick to sleep on my bed. It makes me think that all the bacterias and viruses are stick on it, and the... you know, the smell! And I always get sick easily after I sleep on it, even though I already changed the bedsheet. Or, I will prefer saying that I always get sick easily no matter what. You know... I just hate it.Even friends who sit on my bed, I'd make sure they are clean. However, I was actually mad at my mother for few days because she didn't ask me permission for it. And, not like I don't respect them, but is just my thing.

Besides this, I believe everyone watched Prince William and Kate's wedding yesterday. While watching, it makes me feel like I'm reading back the fairytale books when I was young. Didn't know it actually happens for real- Prince and Princess. And I really like Prince William shy shy smiling face, he is my official wongpaktan. Kate is pretty either, I think they are just the perfect match I have seen so far.

So, I will start seeing him more in Youtube.

Beautiful memories

2011-04-26T02:15:00.000-07:00

The only thing that I can do right now is - stay at home and sleep.

Under this gastric medical treatment for a week, I shall just let the internet world to be my best friend. I have been sleeping, resting and watching dramas the whole day, switching this channel to another channel. I'm kind of already finish watching all the Astro movies. Luckily I'm having semester break this week, besides having interview on thursday and psychology finals on the following week, then I'm done with my studies at Taylors University. I'm more than happy that I don't need to stuck at Taylors anymore, but I know I'm going to miss all my bbf & classmates. A lot of things have been slacking away lately, probably because I'm having a hardtime to take care of my own health.

Few hours ago, I was flipping through facebook pictures, and there are few are somehow- memorable.

Diploma finally coming to the end, I'm going to miss those times we used to hang out together.

We used to write down what to eat for lunch in a list of paper, then everyone will just vote. Most of them are korean freaks, except Eric- who will get sick after taking korean food.

These are our cute face don't know how many semesters ago.

Ohmaigod, I think I will never forget how we used to do assignments until midnight, and those times we cooked and went for trip together. This time, I'm gonna missed the chance to go Singapore with this bunch of people because; as I said, I'm under medical treatment. *supersadface*

Cute face Kim Chun, who ditch the girls quite often lately because he has a girlfriend now.

Handsome Eric, who's very gentlemen to the girls; helped us to carry stuffs and open the doors.

You can probably see him at the KFC ads recently.

Diploma of Mass Communication students. Is time to say goodbye.

Besides those friends I met in school, I also promised this bunch of people- who I met during internship, to meet up at least once during May. Internship was a good time, they actually taught me a lot of things that I'm not able to learn in school. Loves much.

And this is my bestfriend, it has been half a year we didn't meet each other.

She was the closest one to me during highschool, we sit together, we go for lunch together, we went for a date and we sleep together. We used to buy couple seat when we went to the cinema, and people will just give us a weird stares like we are lesbians.

Besides this, I also miss my dancing friends who we used to go for performances and work hard together. I've met some of them since when I was very young, probably 10 years we knew each other. However, I promise myself have to get back to dancing once my sick is fully recover. Really can't wait to meet the Dance Space people again.

Poor boyfriend who can only stay at home with me because I can't go out until sick is recover.

So, we spent our time watching dramas at home while he can drink coffee, eat junkfoods and ice cream but I can only stick with plain mineral water.

Look! So many things have been slacking away.

So, please pray hard that I recover fast because a lot of things are waiting for me to catch up.

Short update #2

2011-04-18T04:15:00.000-07:00

Dang dang dang dang......!

Look at my smart boyfriend who bought the whole big watermelon home but he still managed to chop it down at the end. So, we had juicy watermelon har har harrrrrr.

Sleepy head boyfriend.

Okeh bye.

Short update

2011-04-16T00:17:00.000-07:00

Hi there,

So again, didn't had a proper meal since yesterday because I was really busy preparing for an event. Tummy is aching really bad! Skipped both supper and dinner and go on bed with an empty stomach, okeh I shall slap myself for being so lazy sometimes. So, have to forced myself to wake up because the tummy is madly making noise, I've to look for food or else I'm dead for the whole entire day.

Oh well, woke up and the foods are already prepared. Thanks to sayang Doreen, always buy me awesome food!

So now, have to wait for the boypren to wake up.
I was laughing for almost 5 minutes just now because the silly boyfriend suddenly wake up and ask me: "Shui guan mei?" (In cantonese) LOL! Means, water boiled already or not? Hahaha, SINCE WHEN HE BOIL WATER?! Where got people sleep also think of boiling water one... CRAZIEEEE!

Okeh bye, short update while waiting for the lazy boypfren to wake up.

Thoughts- Gastric

2011-04-12T21:49:00.000-07:00

People called me "skinneh."

Its really sad when people thought I'm anorexic because I'm getting skinnier and skinner each day. Let me tell you, there's a reason behind. But first, I think I should make it clear that I've never try to lose weight in purpose or on diet in my entirely life. I'm a skinny person (but now is extreme) since when I was in primary school, I will never get fat whenever I eat high calories food, or even I eat maggee goreng during midnight. Never! Therefore, I would say I've problem in gaining weight; I assumed that it has a lot of worms in my stomach.(Ohhh noooo.) So, I'm naturally a skinny person. How sad!

Right now, I'm not only skinnier but weaker as well.
Oh wait, there are 2 types of person I hate most when they say I'm skinneh (skinny)!

1st type: "Omg Vivien, you're so skinny I wish I could be like you can fit in to every clothes! So jealous, how I wish I could be like you."

(Omg go die, I feel so insulted when you use this way to describe how skinny I am. I know lah I'm skinny, but don't tell me you're jealous. Do you really want to be that extreme skinny? Let me know, I'll teach you how.)

2nd type: "Omg Vivien, you're so skinny I think you gonna die for anorexic."

(Oh ya, I hope you're not any fat ass! If not, I'm gonna curse that you die for high blood pressure or heart attack.)

But I've to clarify that this is the way they describe the current me, because I don't deny I'm getting skinnier. I'm a skinny person, but right now... I'm alot skinnier. But off course not anorexic lah please!

I have already visited more than 5 doctors because I'm kinda afraid if i've get any sickness that can't cure. So, 5 doctors gave me the same advise- You've got gastric. You just got to eat on time, stop drinking cold drinks,alcohol and take care of your eating habit. And off course, they gave me gastric medicines as well. Apparently, it got me relieved because gastric is very common and it can be cured! I've got nothing to worry about because it is so common. But, I've been taking medicines for the past 6months and it doesn't get better until today. Instead, getting skinner and weaker :( (I afraid if there's no cure, again!) Maybe I damn psycho lah.

So, these are the symptoms that I'm facing- Bloated, dizzy, tired, no appetite and lose weight!! (Tell me this is not dangerous.)

I feel bloated every single day, my tummy contains air more than foods. Even though I tried to burp out all the air, or I take ginger tea to release all the air in the tummy; but still there's so much air in my stomach! (I think I fart and burp more than I breath,wtf) Due to indigestion, I've problem with burping and it leads me feel like puking because of too much air. Especially after meal, I'm dead.

Besides this, my mental tells me I feel like eating this and that; but physical tells me I can't. Tell me this is not torturing enough when you feel like eating this but you can't. (This is confusing, you get it?). Basically, I have no appetite when there's so much air in my tummy and I've no idea how to burp or fart because I can't control much; but I still feel like eating, in a way. However, I have to eat less but more meals in order to improve my digestion. (And this is how people thought I'm on diet because they think I eat less in purpose.)

Imagine you feel bloated (makes you wanna puke), but you control it not to vomit out those foods you consumed; every single day. Would you dare to eat much? Tell me about it.

So, I'm actually afraid if something went wrong with my body. It has been such a long time I kept saying I wanna be healthy. But honestly not that I don't want. I tried, but it doesn't work. This is why I'm getting skinnier :(

Is it you, gastric? I no want you be my goodfriend, go away.
I really have no idea why I'm getting so skinny lately, I know lah because of gastric. But I seriously already force myself to eat, but whyyy? Why am I still underweight. This is scary when I look at myself in the mirror.
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Dang dang dang dang...

Apparently this photo still looks okeh, not as skinny as I say. But when you see me in reality, please don't get too shock because I already told you that I'm extremely skinny lately.

Gastric, you makes me feel like its end of the world.

Little Happiness

2011-04-03T21:09:00.001-07:00

Frankly, I'm a type of person who often flipping back my past memories; Maybe because all the happiness only stayed when I was young.I really don't know. The recent memories I've thought about was few years back, when I first started college. I really have this habit of "thinking" when I drive since then I have a car, because that is the only time I can be alone; that I can actually quietly think something. I really like this way,very much.

The recent ones I've thought was 2 years ago, I have this daily routine of taking train to and back from school because I still don't own a car yet. Everyday, I need to catch the earliest train before it got very packed; and also try to go back early before peak hour. There it goes, this routine maintained approximately 2 years. How sad. Sometimes, I really wonder if i'm a lonely person because I really like to do things alone. Taking train alone is one of the happiest thing I had throughout my whole life, if is during peaceful hour. So, the 2 years "train experience" wasn't really that bad.

Also, because Amazing things happened:

There were these 2 men saved my life during this 2 years.

Sometimes, I get very tired waking up extra early like 5am? By the time I reached school was only 7.15am. Time by time, I feel so much annoyed waking up so early just to avoid the train got packed.Nothing else. My dad was the one who offered to drop me at college so that I can sleep for extra 30mins, and also I don't need to wait for 45mins for the class to start. (If only he is here, just so you know he's working outstation.) Once in a while, I will still love people picking me up to school. Also, that was the only time where my dad and I can have our conversation; just only both of us.

Actually I'm already very satisfied when my dad offered to drop me to school. But here's another person who offered to pick me up after my class no matter what time it ends. See! Told you my past memories are so much amazing, now you believe!* Since then after I met my boyfriend, he offered to pick me up after classes almost every single day. It was one of the happiest time I had because I feel really sweet when the love ones pick me up from school like, everyday. What can I expect more than this?

Facts proven! It explains why.

The reason why I thought of these memories because I am actually quite tired of driving my own. Since then I own a car, I kind of miss the old time when people picking me up and down to school. Even though I love driving to have my alone time.

And, these are those little happiness that gave me good memories.

So, where are you my 2 angels?

Another stage of life

2011-03-25T07:51:00.001-07:00

Hello! Sorry for not updating lately because of the overload works.

Here's a post sharing a community service I had with my friends few weeks ago. Basically, it is part of our moral project ; we are assigned to complete 8 hours of community service. As usual the 7 of us plus Angie (she only start mixing us lately), formed our own group. We actually planned to go kindergarden in the beginning, but due to some reason we have to changed our plan to nursing home which located at sentosa, Klang. I can tell that this is one of the memorable moment throughout my whole life, and i kept telling myself I have to put 100% efforts and commitment in completing this meaningful community service and bringing happiness and joys for the old folks.

I can tell that this place is making people heartbreaking when you see how the way they living with their life like this. When we reached our destination, we actually saw all the old folks sitting alone by themselves, either they talk to themselves or just blank staring at the sky. At that point, i asked myself if I am able to just sit there alone and talk to myself for the rest of my life like them, I think I wouldn't want to stay in this world anymore because it could be just meaningless.

After we introduced ourselves to the oldfolks (even tho some of them might not understand), then we need to feed them one by one because some of them are inability with eating themselves. Each of us had to feed more than 1 old folks because there are roughly 30 of them in the nursing home. At the mean time, I feel that they are just like small kids. We just need to talk to them like talking to a small kid, asking them if the porridge was too hot.

Apart from that, we also helped them to sweep and mop the floor, washed all the plates and so on. Picture above shows that we were rushing to keep all the clothes because of the sudden rain, and we were all wet!

Later then, we had some interactions with the old folks. Sometimes, we might feel annoying talking to old people because they keep telling the same story or sometimes they don't even know what they are saying. But if you open your heart to understand them, I came to realize that it is important to appreciate our parents. Also, most of them has very sad story about their family and kids who abandoned them at nursing home like this.

This is one of the "gonggong" who kept asking us to take pictures with him. I can actually feel that how lonely he is, in getting someone's attention, love and care. Sometimes, I do not understand why would their children or family abandoned and leave them there like this without bothering how they are living. I really feel upset for them for being so unfortunate, yet I couldn't have done anything to help them, other than just comforting them and tried my best to satisfy their needs during our community service.

Angie, Ivy, Nat and one of the "popo".

The group photo.

Us with the peaces!

It was really a long and tiring day, yet I have so much fun spending time with old folks. Somehow, it keeps me thinking if I will be such unfortunate like them in the future. Like I said, If i would to be abandoned to old folk's home in the future and my family, my kids stop caring me; I wouldn't want to stay in this world anymore. Therefore, I really pray hard that they do not abandon me like this one day. Also, this community service really gave me a big impact to appreciate my parents even more; in fact that we need loves and care, they need it either.

I am actually quite satisfied with the outcome I've done for this community service by putting so much efforts and commitment into it. This experience is rather meaningful and priceless because I've taught that relationship with loved ones is something that cannot be bought and measured by money. Also, I could not imagine how my life would be living without my family and love ones.

Until a point of life, we will eventually learnt how to be appreciative, we will learnt how to love our family even more. It is true that we always only learn how to appreciate when we lost something precious; but its always too late to regret. And not to forget, this is one of the most memorable moment I had in my life because I knew that I already crossed another step and walk deeper in my life. I have too much thoughts in myself that I am not able to tell out, but im sure that the feelings of being abandoned cannot be explained by any word.

So, our parents didn't throw us at orphanage when we were young, so what makes us abandon them to old folks home when they are old?

Sepang's Holiday Trip # Part2

2011-03-01T09:05:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, sorry for the procrastinating because I have been busying with college work lately. Finally I have time here to complete my sepang's trip post before another work comes up. So, I'll make it a little simple this time because I have alot of pictures are appending to be posted. Anyway, after reading the first post, do you think Sepang golden palm tree is a nice resort? Alright, we shall see then.

So, this is the swimming pool where I spent my time with all the little cousins. It isn't a very huge swimming pool, but it is the best spot to chill out.

These are those "angmoh" who likes to spend most of their time staying under the hot sun.

While we- chinese, needs to apply sun block all over our body.

This is my nephew and he was so excited because I promised to bring him to the pool.

And, he's actually showing off his "ben10" underwear. *happy until eyes cannot open*

There are also sofas provided surrounding the swimming pool.

Picture above is my cousisn sister- Sam.

Then at night, all of us headed to the restaurant because there are buffet dinner provided. Err, we do not need to pay extra for it because it is already included in our package. Besides this, beers, wine and any other drinks are all free. Or i suppose to say they already charge us earlier in the package.

These are all my cousin sisters who are so much older than me. As you can see. I'm proud of myself being so young and none of them is somewhere near my age.

But, we can talk anything without any age gap.

This is me with the cousin sister whom used to stay with me 10years ago.

Dad, mom and I! Both of them enjoying their red wine with the uncles.

The second day, some of us decided to go the beach so we separated into 2 groups because some of them prefer staying in the villa. Reason because it's so hot and the distance to the beach is not even near at all. So, me and mom, and few cousins decided to just ditch some of them in the room and we go ourselves.

Met one of my friend at the beach.

The cousin sisters and I.

Lol! My ugly face, jumping #1 failed.

Shot #2, jumping succesfully! Lol!

This is errrr... my cousin sister in law.

( I actually hate myself posing like this, but anyway I'll just post it up la i don't know why i post like this look so ugly!)

Okie, this is me posing just for fun :)

At the end, we have to walk back to our villa under the hot sun.
But we had fun at the beach, it will be good if we have more time to picnic over there.

Basically, it is a simple post of me with the family having our sweet time over at Sepang Palm Tree resort. Even though it was only a 2 days trip, but we utilized our times doing all kind of activities. I came to realize that only the own family can give me the feeling of home, the warm for each other and being so secure whenever we go. Especially dad and mom are those people who are always here when I'm down and they are the one who willing to put efforts on me even though i've grown so old. We barely go holidays together because all of us are busy with own works along the year, so i actually appreciate everytime whenever we go for a trip.

Anyway, I'm loving the sepang's trip during Chinese New Year.

Even though new year already passed long time ago, but still wishing my parents and those who are related to me, a good and healthier year ahead. (I'm a selfish person, so i don't wish everyone:P)*____*

I'll come back here very soon, see ya!

Sepang's Holiday Trip

2011-02-22T06:20:00.000-08:00

The third time here I'm saying Happy Chinese New Year even though it's already over.

Well, sorry if you think that i kept mentioned about reunion dinner (because its a little bit special for me) but I really had a memorable one this year. So, after all the memorable moments and my favorite foods prepared by grandma; I am err..very satisfied. Okie, let's back to the topic- A madness trip I went with the families during Chinese New Year.

I don't know whether if you guys heard about Sepang Golden Palm Tree Resort?

It is actually somewhere near Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA), takes about 25 mins to reach the destination. Anyway, it was a trip I went with my families during the 2nd day of New Year and it took us approximately 1 and half hour to reach there from Klang. You'll definitely get fascinated by this place, and i believe there are still many nice places are yet to be seen in Malaysia. So, if you're someone who loves to relax or a romantic person..do not hesitate to give it a try.

These are the sea villas- picture taken from my room.

It is quite a distance to reach the villa. But, there are vans provided to bring you to your room. Unless the villa is near to the lobby, then it is possible for you to walk.

You can just call their service center and they will send someone there to pick you up from your villa if you want to go out. Just convenient and nice.

Daddy, Mummy and me.

My awesome grandmother and all the aunties uncles.

(While waiting for our villa to ready)

Dang! Self-hyper.

2 single beds and a nice balcony out there. Probably you can bring your fishing rod to catch some fishes from the balcony :)

Now, you can see the balcony. Very windy and I actually sat there for more than 1 hour doing nothing. Just purely comfortable with nice view.

The king size bed. It is possible to tell how comfy the bed and pillows are.

Its pretty cool when you open your eyes, and you can see and smell the sea.

A small comfy living room.
Also, there are Astro and free wifi provided.

During the first day, I spent most of the time in the room at the balcony and the swimming pool with the cousins. In fact that i think the balcony is the best spot for me to chill. Or maybe I should say it is still a new villa, so everything is still new and clean. Specially their washroom, I feel much comfortable after showering compare to the others hotel. Also, they provided hair dryer, toothbrush, towel and etc.

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(con't)

Reunion dinner with Kok's family #2

2011-02-15T23:19:00.000-08:00

New year songs everywhere somehow makes me excited about Chinese New Year every year. As i mentioned before, Chinese New Year is my only one favorite festival because it gives me an impact of being cheerful. During New Year eve, everyone in my family has to wake up early to help up for some house cleaning and also deliver food and gifts for relatives from house to house. Usually, I am the one who travelling around for- food and gifts delivery ever since I got my license. While parents would stay at home for the praying.

After a half hectic day, its family berbonding time at night- reunion dinner. Picture above is the table reservation for kok's family. (In case you wonder why i didnt had reunion dinner with my own family, just click here for previous post- http://bit.ly/i09zaL)

Started with the traditional dish- Lou sang. Since young, i don't really like the taste of it because it taste super weird. But I'm trying to love it because my mom told me everybody has to eat it. Slowly, it doesn't taste that bad to me this year.

Dang! This is the kok's family without Doreen who busy taking photos for us. Look at Mr and Mrs Kok with their red outfits sangat ang dong dong! (Restaurant was really crowded with Chinese celebrating reunion dinner.)

The boyfriend and I who celebrated our 2nd Year Chinese New Year together.

And he promised he will gives me angpau every year.

(Doreen and Dickson- the sister and brother)

(Doreen and Jeffry) They actually look damn alike, no?

The restaurant was actually too crowded and we finished our dinner at almost 11pm. Because it was new year eve, people wouldn't mind if the food comes slow.

Anyway, it was a really simple and wonderful reunion dinner with the kok's family. Spending time with them is like spending time with own family, we can just talk anything as long as we want. However, I am really happy to be part of them who bring me happiness and joys all the time. Also, thanks to aunty and uncle who concern so much about us and makes me feel comfortable to be with them.

Praying hard to have a wonderful year ahead for all of us.

I wouldn't say money come, but pray that everything goes smoothly this year.

Reunion dinner with Kok's family

2011-02-10T22:52:00.001-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone, and " Gong Hei Fat Choi"!

It is my only favorite festival among the rest, and also the biggest festival for all Chinese. I'm always excited for new year not because of a longer break, but having reunion dinner with the family, praying session, visiting relatives, receiving "angpau" and gambling. I personally love crowded and noisy, so i guess new year is the best time for me.

So, this is the first year I had my reunion dinner with kok's family and it was pretty fun. Off course, my family had our own reunion dinner but we usually had it during noon time after praying. Conclusion, i had /or (going to have) 2 reunion dinners during Chinese New Year every year :D

Apparently it has only been a year, but it seems like i've met them many many years ago.

I would rather say they are very warm, happy and a funny family. Funny as in everyone of the member can make and take jokes that never fail bringing out laughters. In certain times, they might angry or mad of each other but deep down they still care for that person. I'm really impress that no matter how far all of them apart, but it still remains a warmful family. (And i'm not saying my family doesn't.)

(Dickson-younger bro, Doreen-sis, Jeffry-boyfriend and myself)

Therefore, i'm actually comfortable and happy being with them because they are just nice. I really appreciate all the happiness and those little concerns given by them that makes me feel secure. What's more can i say? :D

Anyway, once again "Gong Hei Fat Choi"!

(con't...)

A one beginning

2011-01-22T22:42:00.000-08:00

Two months had been rather tiring.

Ended my internship on friday, which mean I don't need to drive any further than subang anymore, or drag myself out of bed knowing that "its time to work" again. I'm pretty sure 2 months were a very good learning experience; or finally I've experienced how stressful working life is i'm supposed to say. 2 months has been gone, gotta miss my desk, my boss and those awesome colleagues that i barely join them for lunch (because i'm lazy). Enough of McDonald, enough of korean or maggie cupnoodle, it's time to get myself a healthier lifestyle. I hope.

Class resumes tomorrow.

Is missing University so much, specially stuck in the jam with others, walk a long distance to reach classes, and those expensive foods. Finally life can back to usual, not as stressful as what i had 2 months ago. Don't need to worry of absent, don't need to worry of work has not done. Its true and better believe when people says study is so much enjoyable. Back to a normal life, when i can have a proper breakfast before class, gossip and hi-tea with the awesome friends or berpak-tor with my boyfriend. I don't need to hide myself at home after work anymore (because working makes me very tired)! Haha, shall just put a full-stop here complaining how stressful i am throughout the 2months because i'm a happy kid now.

2 weeks till Chinese New Year. I'm sure everyone already started tidying their rooms and houses where my dad was painting the house yesterday. And I already cleared my desk with ton of notes, books, papers and magazines; apparently it looks super tidy now (but it always only last for 1month). Not to forget, new year songs non stop playing in the radio really gives me mood anywhere, anytime. I can't explain why those songs are so cheerful. Ok, i'm just pretty excited for new year and i can't wait to receive more angpau's this year :D

But before the big celebration, i still have to tidy lot of things; specially my wardrobe. Usually every year, i'll pick all the old clothes to donate people, or give out to all my young relatives. Apparently, mom keeps complaining i've so many clothes and therefore i've to tidy up once a year to give out the old ones to provide the new clothes a space. But this year, I haven't been to any chinese new year shopping yet. Everything has been delayed, not too much time left. Shall just do a simple shopping this year i guess.

Besides that, I should also force myself to start with a healthier plan. Have been sick too much lately, and once sick; everything cannot be properly done. Shall start planning how to start with one first. Well, going back to college in less than 24 hours time. Shall just wish myself a good last semester ahead!

P/s: Pictures are not related to descriptions! Will come up with more new pictures of myself :D See you soon!

Beginning of year 2011

2011-01-06T23:59:00.000-08:00

First of all, the picture above was taken by my err personal photographer at Putra Jaya last weekend. The outcome of all photos are really awesome and i'm really excited to see the rest of them that she's still busy editing. But oh well, her skills are pretty good but no, not me. I have ugly legs and I can't do proper turn out anymore. Pictures above can tell very well anyway. Apparently, I'm still satisfy with myself who made a "pause" in doing ballet (will be back soon) but I'm still able to do this posture. Well, I'll talk more about this when I have all the pictures and post it here real soon.

Besides that, it appears many people out there are really happy about the end of year 2010. No doubt, I might be one of them because I took the opportunity to make the beginning of the year a good ones. What about you then? Year 2010 has come and gone, here's a chance for everyone of us to start fresh all over again and make another year better. What's done has been done, what's gone has been long gone. Be pleased that the mistakes have been done so that we could learn from them. That's how all of us are going to make this year a better year. Looking at 2011, the word that keeps coming to my mind is "hardworking." Honestly, I have nothing much to talk about my 2010 besides those that I had mentioned in the previous post; because there weren't much achievement that I've done throughout the whole year. Although not many resolutions, "hardwork" is one vital point for me to strive this year- it's the key to all initiatives and success. Good ideas without hardwork- or effort to make it happen is merely a thought.

People always says, the hardest part of anything is the beginning. Starting something new is like getting an airplane of the ground. It takes a lot of efforts and focus to plan it all over again. Similar as mentioned in the earlier post, I believe every single thing has to be paid tremendous effort to get something in return.

Well, we shall see then..

Good luck people!

Back to 2010

2011-01-02T22:58:00.000-08:00

Due to the reason that i'm lack of taking pictures lately; So, I simply pick a picture that we took last year.

Its funny when we say about last year, but its actually only few days ago. Look, time is moving real fast. I guess, every year I have been talking about the same thing- "Time is moving so fast, time is moving so fast." Yet a little unbelievable its year 2011 now. Back to 2010, I'm actually amazed of myself because it was the year that i went through hardship and problems the most so far. But well, i'm still living pretty fine today; it proves how strong am i sometimes. No doubt, I really learnt alot from those hardships and problems that I had went through.

Year 2010, I started looking for part time job to earn more extra incomes; not because i'm very poor but I slowly understand how hard to earn a living and I am mature enough to not spend my parents money on things that i need. So, I decided to buy my own things with every single cent that i earn myself. Besides earning extra money, I also gave myself a chance to explore the world as well as seeing different people in this society. In this short period of time, I really experienced how hard is it to earn money because every single thing in life has to pay efforts to get something in return. And not to forget, I came to realize I'm not that type of person who can sit in the office for 8 hours a day to finish up my paper work. Not at all. Therefore, I should really start thinking what's suits me in my future job.

Besides that, It was also the year that I started to leave my passion behind than any other thing. I have only one passion in life- Dancing, i mean ballet. I can't forget how i used to train my flexibility, my stamina, my strength and all my weaknesses. When i was in highschool, I used to go ballet classes straight away after my classes ended at 3pm. Then I only went home at 10pm everynight. I barely open my eyes to do my homework at night instead of copying friend's work early in the morning during class time. Well, not because i'm lazy but..my passion towards dancing really took over everything. But today, somehow I can't find the feeling back anymore. I really wish I can find back myself who was so in love with dancing and be able to dance on the stage ever again.

By the way, everything in University was fine, and I just need to cope with it because each semester is harder than previous ones. After internship, i left only one more semester and i'm leaving to Australia. Well, everything just gonna happen this year anyway. And also not to forget, awesome people in Taylors makes me feel awesome too.

Last but not least, my relationship has been moving like a roller coaster. It was only our first year, and I believe we still got more to go. Year 2010, was also the year that I appreciate most to those who gave me such unforgettable moments. And also a year that i cried most and I acted to be strong in every term, but no matter how.. there's only this guy who able to make me smile. I believe every relationship is the same, but it just depends on how you hold it, how you take it, or how you leave it. A relationship that i appreciate most, the only thing that I hold on so tight. And thanks to babyJeffry, who gave me such a wonderful new year eve, unforgettable moments and beautiful memories. If only i would have a chance to make a choice, I would want to have a better future for both of us. I love you lots, baby.

Well guys, see you soon.

Christmas Party #1

2010-12-23T04:40:00.000-08:00

Once a year, here we are- Its Christmas again. Which means, we are all stepping for another year 6 days later. Its a hint for me to get prepared for a brand new year and recall back what I’ve done within the whole year, either the good or the bad because I always think that i should be improving each year. Perhaps i should say my imagination pretty good, i always thought that we should eat turkey, looking at the snow drop from the sky, singing songs together with the other kids next door, and exchanging presents during Christmas. But well, i already stopped thinking when i was 10 because it doesn’t happened for my past 10years. That was when i watched it from movie, i thought it would happen on me.

Here’s a Christmas party i attended, organized by the company that I’m currently interning. Oh, not to forget this was my first time contributing so much when i work. Or maybe i should say, this is my first time officially working? Anyway, party was held in the office- Tuesday (21/12/2010), everyone has to wear in red which I still don’t understand what is red stand for during Christmas. Therefore, i picked a pink shirt instead of red.

The Christmas tree that we decorated few days back before the party,

with lot of presents. Pretty awesome.

The guy with the funny face called Melvin. And again, he’s my boss. Well then.. he’s only crazy after work. So…

This is only when I’m hungry, I feel like finishing everything whatever it is we called it -“Food”.

Banyak pizza for the day, yummy yummy!

Picture above with 2 ladies, the one standing beside me is Meryll and the other one Laikuen. And also the man with the red colour shirt is Sharif from Holland.

This happened, when tom bullying Jerry! (Good in acting tho)

The group pictures, everyone with happy smiles because we are all holding our presents!

Not to forget, I’ve 3 presents on that day. Wooooooooo!

Present exchanged. These are all our presents.

Last but not least, wishing everyone a very good Christmas and Happy New Year. And I can’t wait for tomorrow Christmas eve celebration with baby Jeffry. Let’s rocks the world at the end of the year! See ya!

Interview at @Digi

2010-12-14T00:40:00.000-08:00

I’m pretty sure internship gives me a wonderful time. Yesterday, me and my another colleague- Lai Kuen, we both went to Digi for an interview with their employees. Basically, they are sharing us information in order to help those graduate students to know what it takes to become a Digi employee. It is an assignment given by the boss, we need to post it in the company’s blog to let the readers know more about Digi. So, if you’re interested; feel free to drop by http://bit.ly/esc4qT!

Digi is located at Subang Hi-tech, which i went there few months ago and i got into an accident; my 2weeks old car get damaged.(If only you loyal readers still remember this.) We always get very sesat to get in Subang Hi-tech which i really don’t know why, not only me..but other people usually get lost for their first time. It’s like magic, i saw this “Digi Car” when i get lost; unintentionally follow them until i reached Digi. Ok lah, this place is pretty cool. They have several buildings there which make me quite confused which one am i suppose to go in. And their parking lots only allow their workers to park, which mean I’ve to park outside the road; a 5mins distance only can reach digi.

We have to register to get our pass only can get into Digi. Very the “Yaoyeng”! Visitor only.. but they still printed out our name and even the company’s name. I think they are just kind of strict to allow people get in to Digi. *forgiveness*

This is the entrance. Got body guard some more!

(They scare people steal their digi’s chairs! LOL)

This is me, talking to the Digi marketing department’s employee (Shanker & Jennifer).

Interview in progress…

Pretty cool, that’s what i think. =P

After interview, we had our lunch at @Digi!

Awesome hot chocolate and spaghetti. *yummyyummy*

Not many choices, and the prices are slightly expensive. But trust me.. the foods are damn awesome!

Dang! They served us the best food!

I’ll probably go there again for their spaghetti. *Hungreyy now*

Thanks to my working partner- LaiKuen who took such nice photos of me.

Love lots <3

This is us! Who crazying around after the interview.

Its pretty cool working at Digi, while i personally feel that it is a good learning place if you love chilling and relaxing. They don’t have personal office, seat or desk. They can work anywhere they want to, which i think this is my cup of tea. If i would be given an opportunity, I would love to work there. And not to forget, they give Iphone 3gs for free for all the employees who work there last year. Pretty cool? (But don’t work there just want to bluff people’s iphone lah!)

Feel free to drop by again for more interesting post!

P/s: Rushing my own blogpost, because this stupid machine in the office is damn annoying! It almost get on my nerve. Well, see you soon people.

The crazy rainbow

2010-12-08T18:30:00.000-08:00

Its already second week of internship.

I've to wake myself up with two lazy eyes and tired body every morning because i'm just that lazy person. I'm going crazy for waking up this early because for the past 7years of November and December; were the month that i used to enjoy my holidays and i never failed waking up late every single day. This is really mad, when we know we have to wake up so early for work during holiday time. Another thing that makes me mad is the journey to the office. It takes me like forever to reach, because it is always massive jam due to so many cars early in the morning. Therefore, i took approximately one hour to reach Ss2. *crazy shit balls*

Conclusion, I've 24 hours a day but i spent 2 and a half hour driving (can reach genting already), 8 hours in the office, 6 hours to sleep, 3 hours to watch drama, and the rest of the time stonning! But these 24 hours are fully occupied, because i've a super crazy boyfriend always in my mind. I'm squeezing my brain juice everyday just to remember his face. *LOL!*

By the way, internships - So far so good! Everyday I've been sitting in the office doing photoshop (which I think my boss is challenging my creativity), and thinking how to write an interesting blogpost. Once in the while, following my boss here and there as his part-time assistant; meeting new people. In a way, Internship improves my photoshop skills, creativity and writing skills. It should be a good start of learning, no doubt. I'm satisfy for what i'm learning now.

And now, I've to fully spent my weekends because I couldn't have much fun during weekdays. I even woke up at 8am on saturday and sunday just because i want to make use of my free time. Oh well, internship really makes me manage my time very well. I'm not wasting any time anymore on unnecessarily thing like how i used to. But I swear, i'm gonna be a free bird after this internship!

Well, come back for the next post; I've something interesting!

Inspiration

2010-11-30T01:17:00.000-08:00

Everyone of us wants to have a happy lifestyle, smile happily to each other, spend like no body business and play like no body care. But this would happened, if only life would be as simple as we dream of. No matter do you take the responsible of what you've done or appreciate what you having right now; just bear that in mind that:

" We only live once, but if we work it right; once is enough."

" Life isn't worth living unless you are willing to take some big chances and go for the broke."

All of us, deserve the same.

TalentEdge

2010-11-28T20:16:00.000-08:00

Its 12.00pm now, this sounds a little unusual for me sitting down at the office brainstorming at my work. Congrats me, the first day stepping in the working world as an intern. As usual, I'm forced to wake myself up from the bed either for study or for work. Life should be more interesting now, meeting different people and working on different things.

So now, i'm doing my internship at this company called- Talentedge.
(You can google it to know more about this company).

Basically, we provide satisfaction guaranteed solutions to our clients from orientation programs for new recruits up to the refreshment and enhancement programs for management levels employees.
So yeah, this is what we do.

Does this logo looks familiar to you?

Well, just wish me luck at the first day of my internship.

Thank you very muchhh.

Because of you

2010-11-24T08:50:00.000-08:00

I can finally smell Christmas and Chinese New year now, and we are all heading to another year again. When it comes to year end, I always felt that i did nothing within the whole year; Or maybe i think i should do more. But in fact that this year is a little bit hectic to me, facing tons of works and I'm not going to have any semester break after final examination due to my internship training. By the way, it has been age since i abandoned my blog because of sickness and works. I have been having sick every single month this year, so please pray hard for me! I don't want to suffer for sickness anymore. T____________T.

When comes to life, facing hardship; we always don't want to be alone.
And I really appreciate what I'm having now, specially those people who always be here for me.

Specially family, Parents.

I often get frustrated when my parents grumble and scold me when i did nothing wrong. But then again, i always tell myself; they are those people who won't want me to get into trouble. I know, I've always been a protected child where my parents won't let anyone to hurt me. When I sick, they are the one who take turns to take care of me; and make sure that i can feel better. And my brother, i always think that he is still young and don't know anything yet. But when comes to certain situation, I only realize I have a brother who care so much for me. It makes me feel so guilty whenever i scolded him, knowing that i'm always a bad sister. I know i'm living under a good environment, having my parents and family which always makes think i'm a lucky child. At least, my parents never let me suffer for anything. I rather there's always them who keep calling me non stop when i go home late, keep grumble me why am i not eating, keep scolding me when i've done any mistake. To be honest, i really appreciate this, everything.

Friends.

Nobody wants to live without friends either. And off course, I have this bunch of friends who I'm seeing them everyday; have lunch together; and make fun together. In school, in works; we go through every hardship together, but we share happiness too. I'm glad that I'm having these friends who often cheer me up, and always be here by my side. I wouldn't know who I am, what I will become if I don't have you guys today. Really, appreciate lots.

Love.

You wouldn't want to lose your love ones if you've found someone you want to be together with in your whole life. I'm glad that there's one here who always care for me, gives me what i want and always be here for me when i need someone to lay on. Love is part of a thing in my life, that i'm sure it will give me happiness. Apparently, it might not be everything; but it always means something important to me. Even though we often have lots of argument and disagreement, but we know there's nothing can make us drift apart. The one who truly love you, is the one who always want you to be good and give you the best of him. I know we have been making each other upset for such a long time, but the love will never be any lesser than the day we met each other. We might came across with many other people before this, but what's important is always the conclusion. It wouldn't matter if we want to be the first, but we only want to be the last for each other. If only you've found someone who wants to go along the whole journey with you, see you getting older; hold it tight. But not the one who only will give u roses. And baby, appreciate lots too.

Life thoughts.

Will be back right here soon. =)

Preparation for Commfest

2010-11-05T06:19:00.000-07:00

Place: Taylor's University Lakeside Campus
Who: LIFE committee members (Mass Communication Semester 4)
What: Preparation for Commfest

After 2 months of preparation, we've finally done Commfest successfully in the year of 2010. This is us- LIFE committee members who worked so hard during the past 2 months and Commfest was done pretty well. Why Commfest? Because semester 4 students are taking CPM (Project Management) which we must organized an event ourselves. This is the journey that made us learned, and get closer to each of our classmates. I'm sure this event bring me even closer to my classmates; and to know them even better.

This is Taylor's University Lakeside Campus.

The place where we organized our event - CommFest.

During the audition day, the dancers were there to registered and wait for their turn for audition.

Natalie Chai, Ivy Gan and Jovee were the judges during the audition.

Look so serious wuuuuuu =______________=!

This is Nicky, one of the dancer.

And this is us- committee members who made all the coupons ourselves.

The coupons- each booklet cost Rm10. Worth those people who came to our event.

We know you guys had fun. No?

The awesome committee members.

Leela, Silkina and Me.

Coupons.

Jeslyn, Dior and Me who went to supermarket to hunt for Gardenia.

Woke up at 3am in the morning, just to make sandwiches for the event.

P/s: The rest of the pictures will be up in the next post.

Adorable Kid

2010-11-01T02:05:00.000-07:00

I easily love small little boy no matter they are cute, fat, thin or chubby; because kids are always cute/adorable. Few days ago, i found a few pictures that i like alot. It seriously makes me keep flipping my photo album over and over again. "I cannot resist not to see handsome and cute little boy one lorrrrrr." I don't think you can also lor!

Ok now I have one of the picture that i really love a lot. Do you want to see?

Dangggggggggggggg!

@_______________@ Do you think he's adorable like i thought?

Okie, now i let you guess who's this and I promise I will buy you a present if you get the right answer. Deal?

See you guys soon! I want your answer ahhhhhhh.

Grandma's Birthday Celebration

2010-10-31T00:21:00.000-07:00

Date: 27 October 2010 (Wednesday)
Location: Palace Restaurant
What? My lovely Popo's 80s Big day.

I came to hear about one story mom told me when I was young about my grandmother. During their age of 10, they already started working hard for themselves; unlike us, where our parents can afford to buy us toys. Most of the families are poor during the year due to the economics, each family has to work so hard to earn a living; this is why my grandmother started working so hard since 70years ago. Imagine 70years she has been working, until today.

My grandmother was born in China then she moved to Pulao Ketam because of some war happened during that time. She is old now, and sometimes she will mumble beside me how cruel the war happened and how she came to survive until today. She can always put it in words to desrcibe the situation of the war, which i think this must be something very unforgetful that might leave a scar in her heart. She is someone as strong as i thought that she could still work so hard today, and never blame a single thing.

Dang! This is my grandmother. I don't really see her often because she is not staying with us, where she stays with my uncle and help him out at his restaurant. Even though if we don't stay together, but we always concern about her like how she does.

This is my family (exclude the yellow color shirt was my aunty).

Mom and Dad are always the only person who will be there for me when i need helps or anything else. They give me what other people don't, and they care for me more than anyone else.

This is my Aunty Elsie-My dad's sister. My name Vivien was suggested by her, and also my bro's Vincent. She is someone who's always cool in my mind because she plays online game and cheats all the small kids. I just think that she's really cool.

The left hand side was my cousin sister, who's now staying with us.

Besides my parents, she is the one who take care of me when i was sick; and cook for me when i'm hungry. And off course, the right hand side- BabyJeffry.

BabyJeffry is going to be angry when he see this picture i posted here, because he always says that he looks ugly in picture. And this is us while waiting for our food.

Grandmothers, my family and aunty's family.

The other grandmother on the right hand is my dad's mom. And my both grandmother are sisters. Complicated? I'm confused too.

These are all my cousin sisters.

This is the big family from mom's side.

Apparently, this is my very first time posting about my family and pictures. Happy birthday to my lovely grandmother who has been working so hard over so many years, and take care of me when i'm not feeling well. And also, i'm loving this kind of gathering where everyone in the families are able to sit together, having a proper meal and get to know each other better.

Roadshow sexy ladies.

2010-10-16T01:28:00.000-07:00

Time is value.

Semester 4 is the busiest sem that i've been, load of works here waiting for me to complete and it takes most of my time. Assignment, presentation, project, roadshow are so happening every week. I barely get enough rest and works keep coming up non stop. Busy, yet I still have lots of fun with the classmates. Semester 4 communication students are all taking part in the project called- COMMFEST. Its on 29th October 2010, at Taylors University Lakeside Campus. Grab a coupon for RM10 from me because i'm sure you guys gonna have lots of fun. You can watch and vote for the dancers, and also having cheap food that day. Not to forget, there will be also Online Blog-Shops. So, what are you waiting now?

Done with Mid-term examination few weeks ago. This is how we loving Canon-S90. Take a picture before lecturer giving out the exam paper. So cooooooool!

The roadshow sexy ladiessss. Woots!

There will be a roadshow on every Tuesday at Taylor's University Lakeside Campus. We are selling of our coupons on that day and also giving out goodies bag and gifts. Are you coming on next Tuesday to grab some gifts? We will see you there, off course. Don't miss your chance to see hot chicks in taylors. =P

The bunny girl and Baby Natalie Chai.

Pictures credit to her S90. @______@!

These are the people who will be in the roadshow every Tuesday. We are ready to see you there!

Not to forget our actual event date- 29th October 2010 (Friday from 9am to 3pm)!

So, What's there holding you back?